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Alright. I'm not dumb. None of you like me. Fine. I wont talk to you and I won't sit with you. Be happy and have fun talking about me. At least I'll always be on your minds. Cuz unlike you who say you're better than me have no one else to talk to or sit with I actually do. So I'll be gone. One last thing:: Fuck off.
Jealousy is a disease, get well soon.
^^Thought about it and I wanna reprase some of it. I don't think none of you like me cuz I still love Tijana Marianna and Gabi. I just can't trust Marisa and I don't like Jenny, which we all know whatever. And it bothers me in the audotorium after the lab exam I was sitting with Gabi and Risa and when Jenny came in I obviously didn't want her sitting with us so I looked away. I was like "Risa Gabi don't look at her I don't want her to come." I didn't hear any objections cuz if you guys really wanted her to come whatever I would keep my mouth shut for thier sake. But they didn't say anything. Gabi was kinda..Gabi like lol and Marisa put her hair over her cheek. I mean come on if you were in my position you would think she didn't like her. But at lunch it was all back to *worship Jenny* mode.
The Wed. night before the movies I called both Tijana and Marisa. When I was on the phone with Marisa we were 'arguing' over who would invite Jenny. Cuz to me she said she didn't want her to come at all. So we were all together when it came to the Port Chester vs. Mamoroneck...but then again we did make plans already for 3 and if Marianna could come 4 people.
Well we all know how that went down Jenny and AJ went to the same theater at the same time as us. And it was akward but it honestly didn't bother me.
That morning Jenny apoligized to everyone. So people said OK and then others didn't, like me. I know I wasn't going to be mad forever but I need more than 2 hours to register things that happened. Marisa said she accepted the apology but at my house and in the chat she wouldn't shut the fuck up about how mcuh she hated her, again I didn't care cuz I still didn't like Jenny. Anyways we saw the movie and all went back home and Marisa came to my house to sleep over which was SO cool at the time cuz I thought she finally made up her mind, I'm not saying she couldn't be friends with both of us but she shouldn't say something to me and deny it to Jenny.
So she was at my house and we had pizza which was alright, but I got a wrap so I really wouldn't know lol. And Jenny called about 5 times. Which of course made us talk about her constantly, I mean duh were 8th grade girls in a fight with someone. So whatever. Finally she left a message to Risa, which of course I heard. And she made it seem like Risa ignored her the most. She actually tried waving so things wouldn't be so akward. So I was like AHHH. Then she called again and Risa answered and put her on speaker, so yea I heard everything. And she tried to blame it all on me and I mean I didn't do anything but defend myself. I mean yea I agree it takes two to fight but I was on the defense here and a little offense however you want to look at it. Anyway I was listening to the convo and like IMing myself to tell Risa my thoughts. Towards the end I found the fart button, haha, and turned the volume up and let Jenny hear a few lol.
After the phone call was on and off talk about her during the movies we watched, 4o year old virgin and American Pie. I guess you could say we spent the whole night talking about her making her pretty special. And I really do remember in the chats and at my house telling her like 50 times if you don't wanna talk bout her fine cuz I know how close you are. But she ignored it and kept talking. So did I, I don't care lol.
So Tuesday comes around and I thought I knew how the day was gunna go. No one talk to Jenny. Akward lunch. Whatever. But when I was sitting down Risa and Jenny walk in togehter laughinhg. I was like what the fuck!?!?!? That was what set me off. I didn't say anything but I was MAD!! So it was like the end of the day and I was like whatever I knew Risa would never stay mad at Jenny, no one has a back bone whatever.
The next day was Hack's it went relativaly well. It didn't turn into a cat fight like I was anticipating. Everything Marisa said went completely against what she told me. The main thing being that she actually accepted Jenny's apology after going on and on about how fake she was. That ticked me but I just kept to myself after that and decided to be pissed cuz she was a two faced bitch that couldn't be trusted. I mean if she says all this stiff to me about Jenny and lies about it to her face then what the fuck does she say about me? Someone like that can't be trusted. That was when I decided I really can't be her friend because she cant even make up her own mind about wha tshe wants let alone tell us how she feels about us.
Then on Friday I was online, like always, and so was everyone else. No one IMed me I didn't IM anyone cuz I don't IM people unless I actually have something to say. So I was on until about 5:30 but then I had to go to this retarded parade for my brother cuz he's in baseball. So I signed off and went. After I went shoe shopping and got the hottest shoes for my dress, yay. So I go home and go online to check my myspace and to see what people were up to. I read peoples away messages and found out that my whole group of "Friends" went to Applebees. Did I even get an invite? No. Which brings me back to the beginning of my edit. If no one supposedly wanted to invite Jenny but we still did how come I wasn't invited even if no one wanted me to go? That just proved to me that no matter what everyone says they love Jenny and not me. Whatever. I accept it. And it's not like everyone wasn't on. Marisa, Tijana, Marianna and Gabi were all on.
So my conclusion is you don't like me. And fine I'll leave you alone. I still love Tijana Marianna and Gabi but I am done with Marisa and obviously Jenny. So thats what has been on my mind the last couple days and now you all know. Believe me if you want to I don't care it happened. And sorry if you're mad at me for being brutally honest with what happened but since no one else will say it I will. And after all of this I must say I commend you, Jenny, for being the only person at that table with a backbone.
So that is all. Love me or hate me after this it is how I feel and I have nothing else to say.
Jealousy is a disease, get well soon.
^^Thought about it and I wanna reprase some of it. I don't think none of you like me cuz I still love Tijana Marianna and Gabi. I just can't trust Marisa and I don't like Jenny, which we all know whatever. And it bothers me in the audotorium after the lab exam I was sitting with Gabi and Risa and when Jenny came in I obviously didn't want her sitting with us so I looked away. I was like "Risa Gabi don't look at her I don't want her to come." I didn't hear any objections cuz if you guys really wanted her to come whatever I would keep my mouth shut for thier sake. But they didn't say anything. Gabi was kinda..Gabi like lol and Marisa put her hair over her cheek. I mean come on if you were in my position you would think she didn't like her. But at lunch it was all back to *worship Jenny* mode.
The Wed. night before the movies I called both Tijana and Marisa. When I was on the phone with Marisa we were 'arguing' over who would invite Jenny. Cuz to me she said she didn't want her to come at all. So we were all together when it came to the Port Chester vs. Mamoroneck...but then again we did make plans already for 3 and if Marianna could come 4 people.
Well we all know how that went down Jenny and AJ went to the same theater at the same time as us. And it was akward but it honestly didn't bother me.
That morning Jenny apoligized to everyone. So people said OK and then others didn't, like me. I know I wasn't going to be mad forever but I need more than 2 hours to register things that happened. Marisa said she accepted the apology but at my house and in the chat she wouldn't shut the fuck up about how mcuh she hated her, again I didn't care cuz I still didn't like Jenny. Anyways we saw the movie and all went back home and Marisa came to my house to sleep over which was SO cool at the time cuz I thought she finally made up her mind, I'm not saying she couldn't be friends with both of us but she shouldn't say something to me and deny it to Jenny.
So she was at my house and we had pizza which was alright, but I got a wrap so I really wouldn't know lol. And Jenny called about 5 times. Which of course made us talk about her constantly, I mean duh were 8th grade girls in a fight with someone. So whatever. Finally she left a message to Risa, which of course I heard. And she made it seem like Risa ignored her the most. She actually tried waving so things wouldn't be so akward. So I was like AHHH. Then she called again and Risa answered and put her on speaker, so yea I heard everything. And she tried to blame it all on me and I mean I didn't do anything but defend myself. I mean yea I agree it takes two to fight but I was on the defense here and a little offense however you want to look at it. Anyway I was listening to the convo and like IMing myself to tell Risa my thoughts. Towards the end I found the fart button, haha, and turned the volume up and let Jenny hear a few lol.
After the phone call was on and off talk about her during the movies we watched, 4o year old virgin and American Pie. I guess you could say we spent the whole night talking about her making her pretty special. And I really do remember in the chats and at my house telling her like 50 times if you don't wanna talk bout her fine cuz I know how close you are. But she ignored it and kept talking. So did I, I don't care lol.
So Tuesday comes around and I thought I knew how the day was gunna go. No one talk to Jenny. Akward lunch. Whatever. But when I was sitting down Risa and Jenny walk in togehter laughinhg. I was like what the fuck!?!?!? That was what set me off. I didn't say anything but I was MAD!! So it was like the end of the day and I was like whatever I knew Risa would never stay mad at Jenny, no one has a back bone whatever.
The next day was Hack's it went relativaly well. It didn't turn into a cat fight like I was anticipating. Everything Marisa said went completely against what she told me. The main thing being that she actually accepted Jenny's apology after going on and on about how fake she was. That ticked me but I just kept to myself after that and decided to be pissed cuz she was a two faced bitch that couldn't be trusted. I mean if she says all this stiff to me about Jenny and lies about it to her face then what the fuck does she say about me? Someone like that can't be trusted. That was when I decided I really can't be her friend because she cant even make up her own mind about wha tshe wants let alone tell us how she feels about us.
Then on Friday I was online, like always, and so was everyone else. No one IMed me I didn't IM anyone cuz I don't IM people unless I actually have something to say. So I was on until about 5:30 but then I had to go to this retarded parade for my brother cuz he's in baseball. So I signed off and went. After I went shoe shopping and got the hottest shoes for my dress, yay. So I go home and go online to check my myspace and to see what people were up to. I read peoples away messages and found out that my whole group of "Friends" went to Applebees. Did I even get an invite? No. Which brings me back to the beginning of my edit. If no one supposedly wanted to invite Jenny but we still did how come I wasn't invited even if no one wanted me to go? That just proved to me that no matter what everyone says they love Jenny and not me. Whatever. I accept it. And it's not like everyone wasn't on. Marisa, Tijana, Marianna and Gabi were all on.
So my conclusion is you don't like me. And fine I'll leave you alone. I still love Tijana Marianna and Gabi but I am done with Marisa and obviously Jenny. So thats what has been on my mind the last couple days and now you all know. Believe me if you want to I don't care it happened. And sorry if you're mad at me for being brutally honest with what happened but since no one else will say it I will. And after all of this I must say I commend you, Jenny, for being the only person at that table with a backbone.
So that is all. Love me or hate me after this it is how I feel and I have nothing else to say.