yay for change
felt the need to update. i had the most amazing time last night. i woke up and smoked and then brant and pat popped in and told me get up and took me out we went to brant and like chilled with katie and stuff i liked that, i havent seen her in a long time. uhh after that back to my house holly came over and then like we left to go to see sweet joe! i was so happy to see him.<3 it was so nice really. it made me pretty happy i dont know why. but yeah i was really fucked up before we even got there. i did mad painkillers and benzos and i was like ahhhhhhhh and like then we smoked OH and brant stole me a big giant rockstar can sign from wawa! its amazing. and so yeah we were at this kids house chilling with joe and shit and like we smoked so fucking much and even a clear joint it was cute and didnt burn my throat! i liked it. but i was blazed and so fucked up that i even started to drink beer. by the time we left and got in the car i was gone. i was fucking sleeping. apparently we were lost in ac for a while but i dont even remember being anywhere near ac. oh well. hahaha :) today i woke up and me and holly had a wake and bake. ate mad food and i took a nap then she left. then i slept more and ate more. now im up thinking about how i need to change my life style. also today me and john were supost to hang out but he ditched me of course maybe tomorrow like he said. but probably not since he has that girlfriend and all.
1. i wanna change my room around and im gonna start that today.
2. i wanna stop doing as much shit, (drugs) as i have been doing.
3. i wanna go on that camping trip with mb, ally, and travis, etc. (which i am.)
4. i wanna hang out with jess one day really soon.
5. i wanna go shopping and get new clothes. (maybe tomorrow my mom might take me.)
6. i wanna get home schooled if they dont kick me out of oakcrest.
7. i wanna find a good boy, one who will treat me right.
8. i wanna not love john anymore (but not really :-/), but i do and i hate that he has a girlfriend.
9. i wanna have good a life and hang out with more people.
10. i wanna get new shoes.
maybe change will be a good thing, its something i need in my life to get me off to a new start maybe? i need a job because i need some money too. i miss marybeth and ally alot actually, i have been thinking about them a lot lately. makes me sad that i use to be able to have so much fun with out the drugs and drinking (even though i dont drink that much anymore). i do love them with all of my heart, they are my true best friends. but yeah.. thats pretty much it, i had a pointless update well. not really but thats alright.
both elbows fucked up as hell. my knees are the same way and my face alittle bit.
1. i wanna change my room around and im gonna start that today.
2. i wanna stop doing as much shit, (drugs) as i have been doing.
3. i wanna go on that camping trip with mb, ally, and travis, etc. (which i am.)
4. i wanna hang out with jess one day really soon.
5. i wanna go shopping and get new clothes. (maybe tomorrow my mom might take me.)
6. i wanna get home schooled if they dont kick me out of oakcrest.
7. i wanna find a good boy, one who will treat me right.
8. i wanna not love john anymore (but not really :-/), but i do and i hate that he has a girlfriend.
9. i wanna have good a life and hang out with more people.
10. i wanna get new shoes.
maybe change will be a good thing, its something i need in my life to get me off to a new start maybe? i need a job because i need some money too. i miss marybeth and ally alot actually, i have been thinking about them a lot lately. makes me sad that i use to be able to have so much fun with out the drugs and drinking (even though i dont drink that much anymore). i do love them with all of my heart, they are my true best friends. but yeah.. thats pretty much it, i had a pointless update well. not really but thats alright.
both elbows fucked up as hell. my knees are the same way and my face alittle bit.