May 12, 2005 11:47
What can I say... ?
I dove into the deep end.
Crushed all that had a sort of meaning.. and ran away with something that seemed to be less filling.
Like a piece of lettuce to a piece of bread.
The three L's of anorexia my friends, learn them.. respect them.. trust them.
They make you skinny, give or take a few [pounds?]weeks.
{If Bulemia applies, subtract allotted time.}
But for the love of God, no.
Don't just drown because you're supposed to.
Don't fall because gravity, supposedly, controls.
Don't scream just because you can't hear yourself think.
Don't interrupt for the lack of patience.
Don't call because you're lonely.
Don't write because you can.
Don't fly because you have wings.
Don't smile because you're unhappy.
Don't joke because you're sad.
Don't tell the world because you're angry.
Just walk away.
Like no one exists... but yourself.
It doesn't save you from anything, it may fog the clarity for a moment or two. Watching all that you love, respect, and created... dissapear behind you. But you'll get over it eventually. With time.
Because as you learn to speak, walk, fly, and create... you only learn to endure the pain and suffering of what follows. So this may only be a test.. this may not be worth it... but it was only a period of time.
There will be other times.. other chances.. BETTER chances. Because.. it only gets better [until it gets worse].
[Don't be a Nazi.]
And if it's worse now.. think about the better that is to come.
Mistake. $Weeks worth of shit.
Bigger mistake. $Months worth of shit.
Being driven to the point of no longer caring. $Priceless.