"the cruelty of love"
so impressed with all you do
tried so hard to be like you
flew too high and burnt the wing
lost my faith in everything
lick around divine debris
taste the wealth of ,hate in me
shedding skin succumb defeat
this machine is obsolete
made the choice to go away
drink the fountain of decay
tear a hole exquisite red
fuck the rest and stab it dead
broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore
poisoned to my rotten core
too fucked up to care anymore
in the back off the side far away is a place where I hide, where I stay, tried to say, tried to ask I needed to all alone by myself where were you? how could I ever think it's funny how everything that swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you would always say we'll make it through. then my head fell apart and where were you?
how could I ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
never change is different now like you said you and me make it
through didn't quite fell apart where the fuck were you?
God. I love that song. It's been in my head for days.
Yeah. I am really confused... by a lot of things.. I don't want to talk about it all though... I just don't know what I should do. There is too much drama for me right now... Work is a never ending soap opera. It's crazy... Micheal, Bobby, Bobby... Amanda. Me... We should see who else we can entangle into this web that we have created...
I don't know what I am going to do tonight. I can't decide. And I shouldn't be deciding anything... Everything was supposed to be off limits. I should know how far to go with some things... and yet I push it until it's at the very edge. And all I can do is watch as if falls...
I hate highschool.
Amanda and I skipped yesterday... Well we skipped most of the day. We went home after first block. It sucked because it was cold and we had to walk... But we went to Cherryvale with Jenni, David, Potato, and Nick afterward. That was fun... I liked not being at school...
I'm sick. I hate it. I have these dot things on the back of my throat... on those gland thingys.... I guess it's the beginning signs of strep throat or whatever. Great. But my throat doesn't hurt at all. My chest does though... and I'm all stuffy. It's gross...
Amanda and I hung out with Andy, Nate, and Dan Shelton last night... It was nice being with Andy and Nate again. I missed that... They wanted us to come play frisbe golf today, but we both have to work at 5.
I hate work.
I hate life.
The end. Ha.
all i ever wanted, was you in my life. you're all i ever wanted
tried so hard to be like you
flew too high and burnt the wing
lost my faith in everything
lick around divine debris
taste the wealth of ,hate in me
shedding skin succumb defeat
this machine is obsolete
made the choice to go away
drink the fountain of decay
tear a hole exquisite red
fuck the rest and stab it dead
broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore
poisoned to my rotten core
too fucked up to care anymore
in the back off the side far away is a place where I hide, where I stay, tried to say, tried to ask I needed to all alone by myself where were you? how could I ever think it's funny how everything that swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you would always say we'll make it through. then my head fell apart and where were you?
how could I ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
never change is different now like you said you and me make it
through didn't quite fell apart where the fuck were you?
God. I love that song. It's been in my head for days.
Yeah. I am really confused... by a lot of things.. I don't want to talk about it all though... I just don't know what I should do. There is too much drama for me right now... Work is a never ending soap opera. It's crazy... Micheal, Bobby, Bobby... Amanda. Me... We should see who else we can entangle into this web that we have created...
I don't know what I am going to do tonight. I can't decide. And I shouldn't be deciding anything... Everything was supposed to be off limits. I should know how far to go with some things... and yet I push it until it's at the very edge. And all I can do is watch as if falls...
I hate highschool.
Amanda and I skipped yesterday... Well we skipped most of the day. We went home after first block. It sucked because it was cold and we had to walk... But we went to Cherryvale with Jenni, David, Potato, and Nick afterward. That was fun... I liked not being at school...
I'm sick. I hate it. I have these dot things on the back of my throat... on those gland thingys.... I guess it's the beginning signs of strep throat or whatever. Great. But my throat doesn't hurt at all. My chest does though... and I'm all stuffy. It's gross...
Amanda and I hung out with Andy, Nate, and Dan Shelton last night... It was nice being with Andy and Nate again. I missed that... They wanted us to come play frisbe golf today, but we both have to work at 5.
I hate work.
I hate life.
The end. Ha.
all i ever wanted, was you in my life. you're all i ever wanted