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I guess she hates me. Haha. People hate me and I don't even know why. People can't give valid excuses for anything. Only because I'm his friend, so once she got rid of him, she'd get rid of me. I like how all this drama occurs right after my mom dies. No one is supportive anymore. Just very selfish. They care only about themselves, and only about their feelings. As long as they're happy, then everything is fine and it all works out the way they wanted it to. I always think to myself "Yea Ben you're important to that person." But then when I find out I'm really not, and I'm just someone they throw out of their life then I feel crushed. I get my hopes up. I wish I didn't but I do. Now you've made me sad, not any other time but now. I thought I was important to you, but obviously drama is the only thing you can really do. That's ok. When you want me to be important I will. But for now I bid you fare well.
On a lighter note, today I have to work. Not so exciting. I'm starting to hate my job. I have no one to share it with anymore. Which is really crappy. I miss my mother badly, and I wish she didn't have to go. But she's in a much better place now.
I want to quit my classes. It's hard to keep my grades up with so much going on right now. Really hard. But I guess I can't use that to justify my reason to quit. I guess I won't quit. Ha. I just argued with myself in my head.
I'll write more later.
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Written by: Benster
On a lighter note, today I have to work. Not so exciting. I'm starting to hate my job. I have no one to share it with anymore. Which is really crappy. I miss my mother badly, and I wish she didn't have to go. But she's in a much better place now.
I want to quit my classes. It's hard to keep my grades up with so much going on right now. Really hard. But I guess I can't use that to justify my reason to quit. I guess I won't quit. Ha. I just argued with myself in my head.
I'll write more later.
Brought to you in part by: Benster
Written by: Benster