Just one kiss and I am ready to die

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I have gotten so much worse about falling in love with boys, and falling into their arms, and falling into their rhythm, and then falling out of their beds at some time in the morning. This is not good for me, and I want to stop. I want me to stop doing this to myself. But boys are so beautiful, especially the beautiful ones. And you know how beauty brings me to me knees, and renders me weak.

I went swimming in the street today. It flooded. That was awesome. I am so cool.

I cannot sing anymore. What the shit is up with that?

I love you, Reeebecca.

I love you, Skyler.

I would say I love you, Tyger, I love you, because it still rings true, but I will not try and weave myself back into your colours of gold.

I wish I wasn't fat. I really do. It would be so nice to not be fat.

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Bah.

I need to hear your voices. It is so cold here. It's always so cold to me, even with the southern summer heat.

With love,