Fuck it
I don't believe in God, because if there was he wouldn't do this not to Ty, he has diabetes and will have it forever, having to poke himself and give himself shots. Its not fair no child should have to do that and not after how much faith I had I prayed every single night for that boy I prayed for him to be able to live a normal healthy life dammit why him. He is so great he doesn't deserve this. seeing him yesterday in the hospital was bad I couldn't stop crying,and today at school I cried. I wish I had got it and not him. I wish he could just be ok. I hate this so much and after this I don't see how I can believe in God because what kind of God could sit back and watch him suffer like this?