New Years Resolution... Kinda
So I am so tired of living up to what people think I am. As cliche as this sounds, I just want people to stop judging me. I am going to use this "I am myself" bullshit. Actually, I hate when people say those two things. But, I am a hypocrite, so whatever. I know half of the people think I am a poser (which I probably am I guess) and the other half think I am punk rock and shit. Well I hate it. So, this all kinda connects with boys (of, boys, of course) I just want to be someone they like.... Sometimess I will be somewhere and be like wow he is hott, but he is punk rock and I am wearing a prep outfit. And I have actually thought that. And it is just pathetic on my part. I just want to be pretty. Punk rock girls aren't pretty.
I am so terrified writing this. But I think I need a "label adjustment". And so my pledge for the new year is, I will like the music I like, and not say that I only like punk rock music to impress someone. I will shop where I want to shop, wear what I want to wear, and when I am going out, I will not think about who I am going with to determine what I wear. And I will not care if someone doesnt like all sides of me. Fuck them. Fuck them all.
I am so terrified writing this. But I think I need a "label adjustment". And so my pledge for the new year is, I will like the music I like, and not say that I only like punk rock music to impress someone. I will shop where I want to shop, wear what I want to wear, and when I am going out, I will not think about who I am going with to determine what I wear. And I will not care if someone doesnt like all sides of me. Fuck them. Fuck them all.