heartbreaker.
&&once again
i've hurt another.
why can't i just move on?
why can't i just be happy with someone new?
i'm NOT going back to him.
i refuse to.
so why won't my heart just let go?
why can't i like the guy that
would treat me like no other?
i guess i'm just not ready for it.
i guess i do need time
like everyone claims.
i'm sorry for hurting you EJ.
You're a great guy
&&
i had so much fun hanging out with you.
i'm just not ready for another
serious commitment.
i just need the dates..
the one's that aren't serious..
where you can go w/one person to the movies
have fun
&&the next weekend go somewhere
w/someone else..
&&it's not a 'relationship' or 'commitment'
it's just seeing whats out there.
that does NOT make me a whore!
i didn't say i wanted to fuck them!!!!!!!!!
just go and hang out!!!!
gahhhhhh
i hate teenage drama.
i'm done with this..
i'm ready to live life for the best
&& when my knight in shining armor comes along
to rescue me,
then i'll be ready.
i'm going to stop trying to find love
&& let love find me.
-btw-
that asshole
that guy that was the first
to steal my heart
&show me love&
happines.
&show me tears&
lies..
he did it again.
got kicked out of school.
guess what for?
drugs.
knew it was coming.
Cee-Jay:
I could never change you.
No matter exactly how hard i tried..
the only thing that could change you,
is you.
You keep saying that you need me,
and I'm all that matters..
but where were you when i needed you?
Where were you when you were all that mattered?
You weren't there.
i was never first on your list.
something else always mattered more.
You never realized that what you did today,
you wouldn't ever be able to take back..
maybe now you see that..
maybe military school can straighten you out.
i sure hope so.
i had faith in you.
Faith that maybe you actually learned.
Once again,
you let me down.
Good Luck on your new life.
your new life without me.
drugs were all you ever cared a/b.
and now you've fully witnessed the consequences.
i always told you that no matter the amnt of
the drug..
no matter the type..
coke, meth, pot, NERVE RELAXERS..
they could all get you introuble..
once again,
i was right..
&& you had to find out the hard way.
I've always been here.
No matter the shit you put me through.
No matter the tears you made me cry.
I was here.
Well,
this is my fairwell.
I've finally had enough.
Good Luck Cee-Jay.
I wish you the best.
I'll always love you.
You'll always be in my heart.
&& def. in my prayers.
remember that i know
you can do whatever you want.
you just have to believe in yourself.
the only thing you need,
is yourself.
and the only thing that can change you,
is you.
I love you Sweetheart.
but i have to say good-bye for good this time.
(143)
i've hurt another.
why can't i just move on?
why can't i just be happy with someone new?
i'm NOT going back to him.
i refuse to.
so why won't my heart just let go?
why can't i like the guy that
would treat me like no other?
i guess i'm just not ready for it.
i guess i do need time
like everyone claims.
i'm sorry for hurting you EJ.
You're a great guy
&&
i had so much fun hanging out with you.
i'm just not ready for another
serious commitment.
i just need the dates..
the one's that aren't serious..
where you can go w/one person to the movies
have fun
&&the next weekend go somewhere
w/someone else..
&&it's not a 'relationship' or 'commitment'
it's just seeing whats out there.
that does NOT make me a whore!
i didn't say i wanted to fuck them!!!!!!!!!
just go and hang out!!!!
gahhhhhh
i hate teenage drama.
i'm done with this..
i'm ready to live life for the best
&& when my knight in shining armor comes along
to rescue me,
then i'll be ready.
i'm going to stop trying to find love
&& let love find me.
-btw-
that asshole
that guy that was the first
to steal my heart
&show me love&
happines.
&show me tears&
lies..
he did it again.
got kicked out of school.
guess what for?
drugs.
knew it was coming.
Cee-Jay:
I could never change you.
No matter exactly how hard i tried..
the only thing that could change you,
is you.
You keep saying that you need me,
and I'm all that matters..
but where were you when i needed you?
Where were you when you were all that mattered?
You weren't there.
i was never first on your list.
something else always mattered more.
You never realized that what you did today,
you wouldn't ever be able to take back..
maybe now you see that..
maybe military school can straighten you out.
i sure hope so.
i had faith in you.
Faith that maybe you actually learned.
Once again,
you let me down.
Good Luck on your new life.
your new life without me.
drugs were all you ever cared a/b.
and now you've fully witnessed the consequences.
i always told you that no matter the amnt of
the drug..
no matter the type..
coke, meth, pot, NERVE RELAXERS..
they could all get you introuble..
once again,
i was right..
&& you had to find out the hard way.
I've always been here.
No matter the shit you put me through.
No matter the tears you made me cry.
I was here.
Well,
this is my fairwell.
I've finally had enough.
Good Luck Cee-Jay.
I wish you the best.
I'll always love you.
You'll always be in my heart.
&& def. in my prayers.
remember that i know
you can do whatever you want.
you just have to believe in yourself.
the only thing you need,
is yourself.
and the only thing that can change you,
is you.
I love you Sweetheart.
but i have to say good-bye for good this time.
(143)