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Uh. Hi. OTL
So I know this is way overdue. My bad. I'm really bad with writing entries and commenting and all that jazz. I do have this lengthy entry for y'all though? :D? Part of the reason was me wanting to write up and post a con review of the Kis-Mint DVD, but that's honestly been up for a month, and I've lost interest....even if I'm almost done with it. orz
A lot has happened. Work has really pushed me to my end. We've been extremely understaffed, so I've been working 35 hours for roughly the past couple months. While my bank account appreciates all the money, my mental health hasn't. I lost myself for a little bit--cried at work, lost sleep.....it was rough. I was so stressed with being stretched thin like that. And I love my job, honestly. It's just been really rough. I had one night where I went in at 5:00 on my day off to help, got dragged off to do my actual job instead, and didn't leave until *midnight*. And then I had to open the next morning. I broke down. And that was the day before my birthday.
Speaking of which, that happened. I'm apparently 23. Who knew?
Back to work though, my hours are finally getting cut. I really shouldn't be happy about it, but honestly I'm ready to have days off and enjoy them again. And I'll start subbing again so I'll be getting money from that too. No big deal with the hour cuts. We finally got help, one of the girls who quit came back and we're getting a transfer the end of the month, so this is my last week with all the hours. I'll miss the pay, but not the stress.
Now branching off the topic of stress, I'm aiming to go to grad school next fall. I'll be trying for a Master's degree in Instructional Technology, which is brand new to Coastal. <3 Super convenient. My next day off is Wednesday, so I'm going to invade campus and try to get more information there than there is online. Once I get the information I need, I'll post it all about it. :3
And finally, we have my journal entry title. That's my weight as of Thursday. Now I've never looked like I weighed. My boobs are, well, boobs. They carry all my weight. For the past couple of years I've floated about 185 lbs. and I was content. Not happy, but content it wasn't getting higher. I decided just to check on Thursday and saw what it was and about wanted to just curl up and die. After that brief moment of hating myself, I signed up for Weight Watchers. I get 32 points a day, and all the fruit and veggies I can stand to eat for free. I also get 49 extra points for treats and stuff.
Guys. I'm STARVING. DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: All I want is to eat all my oreos and eat until I'm full and eat my feelings and I CAN'T.
I'll weigh myself every Thursday, and I'll keep you guys up-to-date, which means I'll actually be posting regularly now.
That's about it though. :3 Hi.
So I know this is way overdue. My bad. I'm really bad with writing entries and commenting and all that jazz. I do have this lengthy entry for y'all though? :D? Part of the reason was me wanting to write up and post a con review of the Kis-Mint DVD, but that's honestly been up for a month, and I've lost interest....even if I'm almost done with it. orz
A lot has happened. Work has really pushed me to my end. We've been extremely understaffed, so I've been working 35 hours for roughly the past couple months. While my bank account appreciates all the money, my mental health hasn't. I lost myself for a little bit--cried at work, lost sleep.....it was rough. I was so stressed with being stretched thin like that. And I love my job, honestly. It's just been really rough. I had one night where I went in at 5:00 on my day off to help, got dragged off to do my actual job instead, and didn't leave until *midnight*. And then I had to open the next morning. I broke down. And that was the day before my birthday.
Speaking of which, that happened. I'm apparently 23. Who knew?
Back to work though, my hours are finally getting cut. I really shouldn't be happy about it, but honestly I'm ready to have days off and enjoy them again. And I'll start subbing again so I'll be getting money from that too. No big deal with the hour cuts. We finally got help, one of the girls who quit came back and we're getting a transfer the end of the month, so this is my last week with all the hours. I'll miss the pay, but not the stress.
Now branching off the topic of stress, I'm aiming to go to grad school next fall. I'll be trying for a Master's degree in Instructional Technology, which is brand new to Coastal. <3 Super convenient. My next day off is Wednesday, so I'm going to invade campus and try to get more information there than there is online. Once I get the information I need, I'll post it all about it. :3
And finally, we have my journal entry title. That's my weight as of Thursday. Now I've never looked like I weighed. My boobs are, well, boobs. They carry all my weight. For the past couple of years I've floated about 185 lbs. and I was content. Not happy, but content it wasn't getting higher. I decided just to check on Thursday and saw what it was and about wanted to just curl up and die. After that brief moment of hating myself, I signed up for Weight Watchers. I get 32 points a day, and all the fruit and veggies I can stand to eat for free. I also get 49 extra points for treats and stuff.
Guys. I'm STARVING. DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: All I want is to eat all my oreos and eat until I'm full and eat my feelings and I CAN'T.
I'll weigh myself every Thursday, and I'll keep you guys up-to-date, which means I'll actually be posting regularly now.
That's about it though. :3 Hi.