Birthday and 404 Ramblings
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ames1010!!!
Hope you have an awesome one!
OMG....Dean and Sam, pissed off worried big brother and guilty, sorry Sam. LOVE!!!
OMG...really I wasn't even excited for this episode but the first 5 minutes? The boys together? AWESOME.They both broke my heart.
Jensen and Jared were just perfect.
Dean was so pissed off and so worried at the same time. Sam was doing
exactly what he has tried to stop since S1.So he was desperate...and honest, like I wasn't expecting. Dean told Sam everything he knew, about Castiel, about his travel in the past..while Sam?
No, he didn't. I guess this will cause the rift between the boys in the first place. Dean comes clean, Sam no. It's like Dean can't trust his brother anymore.
Think about it:
The Yed telling him Sam might not be 100% Sam;
John telling him to stop him;
Castiel telling the same thing;
Dean seeing what he did in the past.
He loves Sam and he always will but love is different from trust. As much as Dean tries to understand Sam and I am sure he does...I also think something is broken inside of him. The trust in his brother...maybe is not gone but it's not the same anymore. I know too well this feeling. It can destroys you.
Dean showed all his fears and emotions, simply and clearly. He knows
there is a lot going so and he isn't allowed to hide things from Sam.
He doesn't want.
Sam? Oh I saw glimpses of Sammy and it was so painful.
Sam is really following a dangerous path. It's so easy to trigger him. Just few buttons the demon pushed made him lose the control. Point is he never gets the answers he wants. He killed the CRD and it was useless. He didn't get any info from the demons he killed, so what's the point, Sam?
Is he telling himself a story that is acceptable, that so he can save lives without killing people or is there something he's hiding from himself too?
His look when Dean told him about Castiel was so scared. He believes
in God and now he knows God doesn't want him do what he does. How painful must be for him? Knowing this and knowing that his brother would hunt him if he didn't know him?
Dean and Sam
They are both alone, they are both scared and terrified.
When Sam got out of the car and yelled at Dean, he made it clear how much he feels alone and scared. I believe when he says he has to make something good out of it because he needs to, but yeah...road to Hell is paved with good intentions.
I get that Sam thinks Dean can't understand but this way, he's closing his brother outside and once again he is doing the wrong thing. He
can't do this alone. He can't simply say that he is done with the powers. He can't shut Dean out. It's selfish, it's again "it's all about me, yu can't understand, leave me alone". It doesn't work this way and Dean knows it better than anyone else.
The way he looked at his brother when he was telling him his feelings, was the same Castiel gave him at the end of ITB. Full of simphaty but aware he is the one who can save his brother.
They have both their personal burden to carry. It's not a matter of which one is heavier. They are both cruel and they can find a way out only together.
It's not Dean show or Sam show. They both have their role.
We should just enjoy the ride!
Some more things.
-I liked that the old hunter understood that something was off with Sam.
-"Don't get me started"..Jensen does always so much with his voice.
-I liked the interaction between the boys, the fact that they still complete each other when they hunt. As when Sam wanted to save Jack,
while Dean, as usual, wanted to act. This is so in character for both of them. Means they still are the Winchesters as we know them.
-"We are here to save you..I guess.."...Oh Dean!
-oh man gross...
-Big brother is always right Sammy. *grins*
-Sam again in the closet, like in Nightmare.
-"It only matters what you do. It's your choice". I wish he could really believe his own words but Jack proved him it's not that easy.
No matter what Sam keeps telling himself.
-Ruby is doing much more damage to the brothers relationship than Castiel or anyone else. How much does she hurt Dean? I mean how much he was affect by her, to the point of telling Sam he didn't need him since he can go around hunting demons with her? I know Dean was pissed and he would never leave Sam, but is Sam seeing where Ruby is leading him?
This is the biggest betray Dean has to face. Sam prefers Ruby. Sam doesn't need him. Actually he does, but this another story.
Now I just want Dean to remember something about Hell and I am perfectly content with this season :))))
ETA
Once again, Sam took Dean for granted. Focused on himself. Not a word about what Dean went through in Hell, not a word on how he must have felt after Castiel's revelations. This is not by chance. This is Sam's limit. Not able to relate to his brother pain and issues. Never.
Pride, pride, pride..."I can do it by myself", "I'm soing the right thing". As always. I feel sorry for him because he is so focused on telling himself lies, that he is totally unable to see what he is doing to himself and to his brother.
Jensen's acting owns me. He owns me every time, that's the main reason why I really love him. Everything else is just a game.
Hope you have an awesome one!
OMG....Dean and Sam, pissed off worried big brother and guilty, sorry Sam. LOVE!!!
OMG...really I wasn't even excited for this episode but the first 5 minutes? The boys together? AWESOME.They both broke my heart.
Jensen and Jared were just perfect.
Dean was so pissed off and so worried at the same time. Sam was doing
exactly what he has tried to stop since S1.So he was desperate...and honest, like I wasn't expecting. Dean told Sam everything he knew, about Castiel, about his travel in the past..while Sam?
No, he didn't. I guess this will cause the rift between the boys in the first place. Dean comes clean, Sam no. It's like Dean can't trust his brother anymore.
Think about it:
The Yed telling him Sam might not be 100% Sam;
John telling him to stop him;
Castiel telling the same thing;
Dean seeing what he did in the past.
He loves Sam and he always will but love is different from trust. As much as Dean tries to understand Sam and I am sure he does...I also think something is broken inside of him. The trust in his brother...maybe is not gone but it's not the same anymore. I know too well this feeling. It can destroys you.
Dean showed all his fears and emotions, simply and clearly. He knows
there is a lot going so and he isn't allowed to hide things from Sam.
He doesn't want.
Sam? Oh I saw glimpses of Sammy and it was so painful.
Sam is really following a dangerous path. It's so easy to trigger him. Just few buttons the demon pushed made him lose the control. Point is he never gets the answers he wants. He killed the CRD and it was useless. He didn't get any info from the demons he killed, so what's the point, Sam?
Is he telling himself a story that is acceptable, that so he can save lives without killing people or is there something he's hiding from himself too?
His look when Dean told him about Castiel was so scared. He believes
in God and now he knows God doesn't want him do what he does. How painful must be for him? Knowing this and knowing that his brother would hunt him if he didn't know him?
Dean and Sam
They are both alone, they are both scared and terrified.
When Sam got out of the car and yelled at Dean, he made it clear how much he feels alone and scared. I believe when he says he has to make something good out of it because he needs to, but yeah...road to Hell is paved with good intentions.
I get that Sam thinks Dean can't understand but this way, he's closing his brother outside and once again he is doing the wrong thing. He
can't do this alone. He can't simply say that he is done with the powers. He can't shut Dean out. It's selfish, it's again "it's all about me, yu can't understand, leave me alone". It doesn't work this way and Dean knows it better than anyone else.
The way he looked at his brother when he was telling him his feelings, was the same Castiel gave him at the end of ITB. Full of simphaty but aware he is the one who can save his brother.
They have both their personal burden to carry. It's not a matter of which one is heavier. They are both cruel and they can find a way out only together.
It's not Dean show or Sam show. They both have their role.
We should just enjoy the ride!
Some more things.
-I liked that the old hunter understood that something was off with Sam.
-"Don't get me started"..Jensen does always so much with his voice.
-I liked the interaction between the boys, the fact that they still complete each other when they hunt. As when Sam wanted to save Jack,
while Dean, as usual, wanted to act. This is so in character for both of them. Means they still are the Winchesters as we know them.
-"We are here to save you..I guess.."...Oh Dean!
-oh man gross...
-Big brother is always right Sammy. *grins*
-Sam again in the closet, like in Nightmare.
-"It only matters what you do. It's your choice". I wish he could really believe his own words but Jack proved him it's not that easy.
No matter what Sam keeps telling himself.
-Ruby is doing much more damage to the brothers relationship than Castiel or anyone else. How much does she hurt Dean? I mean how much he was affect by her, to the point of telling Sam he didn't need him since he can go around hunting demons with her? I know Dean was pissed and he would never leave Sam, but is Sam seeing where Ruby is leading him?
This is the biggest betray Dean has to face. Sam prefers Ruby. Sam doesn't need him. Actually he does, but this another story.
Now I just want Dean to remember something about Hell and I am perfectly content with this season :))))
ETA
Once again, Sam took Dean for granted. Focused on himself. Not a word about what Dean went through in Hell, not a word on how he must have felt after Castiel's revelations. This is not by chance. This is Sam's limit. Not able to relate to his brother pain and issues. Never.
Pride, pride, pride..."I can do it by myself", "I'm soing the right thing". As always. I feel sorry for him because he is so focused on telling himself lies, that he is totally unable to see what he is doing to himself and to his brother.
Jensen's acting owns me. He owns me every time, that's the main reason why I really love him. Everything else is just a game.