Been awhile!
Shit, Summer isn't going as good as I had imagined it would go. Brady can hardle do shit, Ian's with Brooke all the time, and I'm like O.O...shit.....Im now offically the third wheel now. Brady and Linz, and Ian and Brooke (in time it'll be 100%). Hmmp, does it suck? Yea, losin guy friends left and right to chicks. Am I jealous? Well, yea...they got girls and I kinda....ok...I dont have any. Hmp, i cut my hair, it's wicked short now, and not black...i'm letting it grow back. Not as long as before but, longish. Then I get to shave too! yes, well, once the play is done. I have to play a Jewish Papa... that means beard...damn..it's hot and not nice...but oh well. It's gonna sound sad but I got two messages from Elise and Briar and they said them missed me and loved me..and it actually made my day...Another thing I should make clear to people who doubt me, im not some horny sex monster...do I like the idea of sex and stuff? Yes, am I a guy in all, but is that important to me? Not know, all I want it to hold and be held, call me a fag, but I want to be loved and cared for. I like the feeling...it's very very nice....I miss alot of people, I havent heard from in awhile, but hehe what can I do? Oh well, I'll try to keep up in this jounral...it's been too long...im sorta on an off day right now...so sorry...thats all I can say......Song of the day-
Song: Buried Alive By love
By: H.I.M
Again, the burden of losing rests upon my shoulders
And it's weight seems unbearable
‘Your tomb is where your heart is,' I should have told her
But within me hid a secret so terrible
To cry is to know that you’re alive
But my river of tears has run dry
I never wanted to fool you, no
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile (yeah)
The kiss of vanity blessed me with a spiritual murder
Fed the gods of war insatiable
‘Your home is where the dark is,' I should have told her
Embraced the fire indestructible
To die is to know that you’re alive
And my river of blood won’t run dry
I never wanted to lose you (no)
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
Oh, they say to cry is to know that you’re alive
But my river of tears has run dry
I never wanted to fool you, no
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And a deserted soul is gone
A cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
I've been buried alive by love (Buried alive by love)
I've been buried alive by love (Buried alive by love)
I've been buried alive by love (Buried alive by love)
Song: Buried Alive By love
By: H.I.M
Again, the burden of losing rests upon my shoulders
And it's weight seems unbearable
‘Your tomb is where your heart is,' I should have told her
But within me hid a secret so terrible
To cry is to know that you’re alive
But my river of tears has run dry
I never wanted to fool you, no
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile (yeah)
The kiss of vanity blessed me with a spiritual murder
Fed the gods of war insatiable
‘Your home is where the dark is,' I should have told her
Embraced the fire indestructible
To die is to know that you’re alive
And my river of blood won’t run dry
I never wanted to lose you (no)
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
Oh, they say to cry is to know that you’re alive
But my river of tears has run dry
I never wanted to fool you, no
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And a deserted soul is gone
A cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
If I should die before I wake
Pray no one my soul to take
And if I wake before I die
Rescue me with your smile
I've been buried alive by love (Buried alive by love)
I've been buried alive by love (Buried alive by love)
I've been buried alive by love (Buried alive by love)