I should be memorizing lines...

[x4givenx4everx]

So I said something I shouldn't have...
And I feel bad about it...
But I meant it...
I just didn't realize it I guess...

So I was in the boy's room last night...
And they were talking about their friend who just got dumped by his girlfriend...
And without thinking...I blurted out...
"Well it's nice to see guys getting their feelings hurt for once."
Not remembering that both of them just got dumped by their girlfriends last semester...

So yes...
I felt bad...
I'm sorry I said it...
But I meant it...

Then the idiot just proceeded to piss me off...
Because he's a pig...and insanely condescending...I never realized that until last night...

I've had a variety of issues with boys...
It seems I'm the girl guys like to flirt with....but don't actually want to date...
It also seems that guys who flirt with me like to lead me on a lot...and then pick someone else over me...
I mean I've been used by one specific guy in a different way...and I hate him for it...
But I've never been deeply emotionally hurt like other's have...

But I blame a lot of this on guys today being too stinkin' clingy...
It's overly obnoxious...
But the boys also stated that girls these days are overly bitchy...
With which I totally agree...

So I may have ruined my chances...
I may not have...
I'm not even sure how I feel about it anymore...
I guess I just wait and see what happens...
After all...
He invited me over...