From now on.
As of late I have come to realize that as hard as you try to control everything in your life, you'll fall flat on your face and realize you have no control over anything. Really...it's impossible to control anything. My whole life I've thought I could control myself and how I would react to the people around me...or not react. And now looking back on my life I see how much I have missed out on because of my fear or not having control. If I had just let things be as they were and welcome the change that would have come, I think I would have enjoyed life a lot more. I know I'm only 19 and I still (hopefully) have a long way to go till I die but from now on I am going to try and embrace change, let go of the things I can't control which is pretty much everything and take things as they come. Who cares if someone doesn't feel like talking to me, I shouldn't change m whole world based on other people's actions. Just let things be and do my own thing...That's what I'm going to do...or at least try to.
I think I'm pretty much addicted to not only STarbucks but now Thai Food as well. I am seriously in love with it. Curry and Tofu are my favorite. I want to try other things but I always want my curry. It's so delicious I don't know how i've gone so long without it. Also, I just found a Drive Thru Starbucks last night and apparantly everyone has known about this secret oasis except for me. I can't believe I've been missing out on it for so long. But, at the same time I love the atmosphere of a coffee shop so I think I'll probably go to the other one anyways.
Tomorrow is the AFI show and I can't wait. Not only that but I get to spend the day with some of my best friends as well as going to some vegan restaurants so I'm pretty stoked. I seriously can't stop thinking about the show tomorrow and what songs they might play. I hope I'll get to see them after or something. That would be a dream come true.
We'll see how it goes.