not the happiest of entries
cherish and love all of the people that are close to you in life because you really truly never know when they can be gone - i came home from school yesterday and my mom had told me that uncle nick had passed away. he died the night before yesterday in his sleep. we don't know what the cause is yet, but it's been a shock to everyone. everyone's taking it pretty bad. my dad said my grandparents have been walking around aimlessly and can't understand why god had to take him, because they feel it's their time to die (they're 85), and it shouldn't have been him. my dad had to take my grandpa's gun and bring it to our house because he was afraid he might act out somehow and do something stupid. but everyone is all shaken up by this, it's just so sudden. he was just here visiting us 2 weeks ago. it's such a shame, he was only 58, and he had just retired last year, he didn't even get the time to enjoy his retirement. i heard my aunt cindy is doing horrible, the day after he passed away, was the anniversary of when her father had died. and her mom is in the hospital right now and doesn't have much more time to live. and poor anna, nick, and joey, i heard they're in really bad shape too.
now, not that i'm saying this casually, because i'm so definitely not, but a lot of people have been passing away this week and last week. last week billy's uncle passed away. he was only 43, that's so young. he had a disease and 2 days after the day he died he was supposed to go in for an operation for his disease, but the stress from the impending surgery caused him to have a heart attack which ultimately is what killed him. the poor guy. billy said he has 4 kids too. and the other day my next door neighbor joan's brother passed away and she had to fly up to philadelphia, and just now this. i don't know where it's all coming from.
my sister, my dad, and my grandparents flew up to new jersey today, they actually should be landing at the airport pretty soon, or right about now, and my uncle walter and aunt helen drove down here 2 weeks ago, so they started to drive back today as well. my mom and i are flying up tomorrow afternoon. we still have to book tickets since i had to talk to my teachers at school and let them know what was going on. i won't be home until wednesday. my dad and my sister aren't coming home until saturday, and i wish i didn't have to too, but if i come back on wednesday and am in class thursday then i can catch up my stuff and won't be that behind since it'll only take me a day or so to catch up. uncle nick's funeral is going to be in upstate new york on sunday and the wake (i think) is monday. i don't know how these things work, i've never been to one before. when my poppy died right after we moved down to florida, only my mom went up, so i didn't go to his funeral. i was only 7 at the time and my sister was 4. and when my uncle junior died, i was really little i think, i know i was younger than 7. i remember him vaguely, i remember what he looks like and his voice, but other than that i don't remember anything else. my sister was too young when he died that i don't think she even knows what he looked like, we have to tell her who he is when/if he's in pictures.
anyways, i have to pack all of my things tonight for new jersey since my mom is picking me up from school tomorrow and then we're heading to the airport. i also have to do some homework because it's due tomorrow as well. so i'm gonna go do those things and i will be back some time on wednesday. xoxo <3