yay new post.
so im pretty sure its been like 4 years since i last used this, but ive just felt the need to vent a little. plus i know no one goes on this anymore so no one will see what i write. :]
i am so sick of skyler and the way he treats me. but i cant get up the courage to break up with him. i just love him too much. plus if i did i would have nothing. i gave up all my friends for him. all of them. every single one. sad i know. and i totally regret it now. i only hang out with his friends. i mean there is sav and lena that are mostly my friends but they hang out in the same group. we all hang out together just our group. so i wouldnt feel comfortable going out there to loopers or just out with all them if me and him werent together.
i keep thinking that he will change but he wont. hes said that he will but he never has. not once. it hurts you know. i changed for him. i became friends with the one girl i wanted to hate for the rest of my life. but i did it for him. cause when you love someone sometimes you do stuff that you dont like just to make them happy. i wish he would do things to make me happy. stop being an ass all the time for once. treat me how i should be treated. its no wonder hes never had a good relationship with anyone before. no one would but up with his shit. and i just let him walk all over. all because i dont want to fight with him. and i know as soon as i say one thing to stick up for myself the fighting begins.
god i hate my life. what happened to me. i would never put up with this before.
i am so sick of skyler and the way he treats me. but i cant get up the courage to break up with him. i just love him too much. plus if i did i would have nothing. i gave up all my friends for him. all of them. every single one. sad i know. and i totally regret it now. i only hang out with his friends. i mean there is sav and lena that are mostly my friends but they hang out in the same group. we all hang out together just our group. so i wouldnt feel comfortable going out there to loopers or just out with all them if me and him werent together.
i keep thinking that he will change but he wont. hes said that he will but he never has. not once. it hurts you know. i changed for him. i became friends with the one girl i wanted to hate for the rest of my life. but i did it for him. cause when you love someone sometimes you do stuff that you dont like just to make them happy. i wish he would do things to make me happy. stop being an ass all the time for once. treat me how i should be treated. its no wonder hes never had a good relationship with anyone before. no one would but up with his shit. and i just let him walk all over. all because i dont want to fight with him. and i know as soon as i say one thing to stick up for myself the fighting begins.
god i hate my life. what happened to me. i would never put up with this before.