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[x3mydreams_]

So. I decided to update. I'm not doing all that great. Aaron was gunna cheat on me, weather he did or did not I have no idea. He might even have someone on the side. It hurts to lose someone that you have spent 16 months of your life with. The person you THOUGHT you were GUNNA marry. I feel alone. Like I am lost. We were practicly married. And then THIS happens. He turns his phone off now so I can't get in contact with him. When the truth is I just need to hear his voice so I can fall asleep. Love is good and when it is good it gives you the BEST feelings in the world. But when love is bad it hurts you and tears you apart inside. He tells me that I can never get my virginity back from him. And I can't but I dont regret it like I think he does. Even though I was his like 8th person. I'm waiteing till I'm married to give my heart away again. It's just not worth the pain. I don't regret ever loveing him. Cuz the moments I spent with him are ones that I will never forget. Some days he loves me. Some days he dosent. I'm just trying to get through day after day. I pretend to be happy and every thing but this is KILLING me inside! I have no idea what to do. Should I move on. What if I do find antoher guy. Will he love me as much as Aaron ever did, when he loved me. Or what if I marry soemone and then see Aaron 3 years down the road and regret it. I just have no idea what to do. And jsut so every one knows ::: THE SINGLE LIFE SUCKS!

♥ r a c h.














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