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so. i thought that things would be different last night and today. i thought maybe, just maybe, it could be about me for once. but nevertheless, it wasn't(notice the lack of my care for whether nevertheless is a correct term for what i want to say).
i love how people, though they seem to change, never really do. they can try their hardest, or not even try at all. but they never really change at all. their demeanor and behavior says it all.
and i'm starting to think that maybe, instead of the two best friends that i thought i had and would have forever, that maybe, just maybe, i only have one true true one. one that will always be there. always. one that always puts me first. always. one that i can truly always talk to and tell my real feelings to. always. we may not talk on the phone every day, and we may not hang out 24/7. but i can always know, from the bottom of my heart, that she will be there. always. because she always has been. it's been proven time and time again.
last night, i was thinking how i'm gonna miss everyone when college comes around. then, today i realized i probably won't as much. i mean, in reality, i love all my friends to death. but. i'm just about always without them anyways, with the exception of school. maybe a phone call every now and then. maybe a visit here or there. but now that i think about it, it's not going to be that dramatic for me. i think i will try to head out to cali. more specifically SoCal. and just even try to get away. when i'm on vacation, i feel so free. i want that feeling to be an everyday feeling in my future. every single flipping day. i want to go to a steak house a pierce a friend's ear with a skewer. i want to go to the beach every day, just to feel the warmth of the sand. and i want to be away. from everyone here. except maybe k10. not that i could stop her from coming to visit. lol.
anyways. its whatever. it's my birthday. what a wonderful birthday.
i love how people, though they seem to change, never really do. they can try their hardest, or not even try at all. but they never really change at all. their demeanor and behavior says it all.
and i'm starting to think that maybe, instead of the two best friends that i thought i had and would have forever, that maybe, just maybe, i only have one true true one. one that will always be there. always. one that always puts me first. always. one that i can truly always talk to and tell my real feelings to. always. we may not talk on the phone every day, and we may not hang out 24/7. but i can always know, from the bottom of my heart, that she will be there. always. because she always has been. it's been proven time and time again.
last night, i was thinking how i'm gonna miss everyone when college comes around. then, today i realized i probably won't as much. i mean, in reality, i love all my friends to death. but. i'm just about always without them anyways, with the exception of school. maybe a phone call every now and then. maybe a visit here or there. but now that i think about it, it's not going to be that dramatic for me. i think i will try to head out to cali. more specifically SoCal. and just even try to get away. when i'm on vacation, i feel so free. i want that feeling to be an everyday feeling in my future. every single flipping day. i want to go to a steak house a pierce a friend's ear with a skewer. i want to go to the beach every day, just to feel the warmth of the sand. and i want to be away. from everyone here. except maybe k10. not that i could stop her from coming to visit. lol.
anyways. its whatever. it's my birthday. what a wonderful birthday.