im falling into memories of you, the things we used to do.

[x3_54]

so today is the day my best friend leaves the go to europe for 22 days. its kinda sad you know. this summer has gone by somewhat fast but yet boring. i felt like i didnt get to see her enough this summer and it saddens me. i also feel so out of it lately, like im off-track or something. yesterday was my birthday but it didnt really feel like it. i was woken up by jenna and jessi pounding on my window and then charging through my door singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY for me. it was cute. we lounged around and gave gifts. jenna and i gave jessi her goody bag to take with her to europe. it was filled with random/useless things. lots of them were inside jokes. later that day we went to the movies and saw bewitched. it was okay.. kinda corny if you ask me. the night just sorta carried on and it was fun. i woke up like five times this morning. i had some weird dream that i found really funny. i came home around 12:15ish and opened my bedroom door to find balloons all over the place. of course it was my adorable boyfriend who did this. it was cute. i then left for my tata's, then to the cemetery to visit joey, and then to look at a car. i feel sick today, and my body is really aching. my mom thinks somethings wrong with me, like i need counseling, but i really dont know if anything is wrong with me. i dont think there is but who knows. i never know when im stressed or depressed.. so that can be bad. whatever, im weird. today is samantha's bday party. im excited to see everyone that i havent been keeping in touch with over the year. its kinda like reuniting. lol. well to me at least. i just dont wanna feel out of place. but we'll see.

im out.

i love colin.