(no subject)
does anybody out there
feel the way i do?
you’re too in love to let it go.
You’ve tried.
you’ve tried so hard.
& you hear it so many times,
“just go out and have fun with the girls,
if your doing other things, it gets your mind off of him,
then soon, you’ll just forget all about the asshole”
you’ve tried it.
you’ve tried it all.
& that “asshole”
no matter what he’s done to you,
no matter how it happened,
how he went away,
how he left you,
is not an asshole to you.
EVER.
it’s impossible to think down on him
no matter what he’s done.
you love him.
you swear you always will.
some days, it feels like your finally over him,
then tomorrow comes.
you think to yourself,
“i miss him so much”
“what can i do”
“i NEED HIM BACK IN MY LIFE.”
& it continues.
then it stops.
& then your missing him to death.
occasionally you cry yourself to sleep at night.
no matter what’s going through your mind
whether your thinking you don’t need him,
or you miss him like crazy and want him back that very second,
you still pray for him every single night.
you pray that he’ll be safe and that he knows you love him with all your heart still
& you always will.
you want him to know & you want him to care.
you pray that he’ll think about you.
& miss you just like you miss him.
you like the think that he does. But sometimes you get that thought that
he might not.
& that thought really hurts you.
so you continue to miss him,
and hope,
and pray,
and cry and do everything else that you do for this guy.
All because,
he went away.
& you will always
love him.