We've got a lot to learn.

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I feel a need to write a lot on my mind, maybe that is the reason why my right eye keeps twitching. In case you have lost count of my age, I am now 24 turning 25 in less than 3 months. Crazy, ain't it? I think I started this thing when I was 16 or 17. I know I have come such a long way since then. I have grown into my own skin and have a lot more confidence in myself now. But alas, sometimes I still feel like that young 16 year old girl. Lately my life has been pretty good. I am doing really well in school for once and not failing. I am in love with the most amazing man, he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Lately my social life has been lacking. Its the whole I just want for people to accept me and like me thing. I feel like I am in middle school all over again. Most of my friendships have not been consistent over the years. In college I had the most amazing friends, I truly miss seeing them everyday but after we graduated I lost touch with most of them. Which sucks a lot but I love and care for them no less now then I did then. Over the summer the friendship between me and best friend ended. Honestly it was a long time coming, people change and grow apart. So let me stop rambling there is a large lack of girlfriends in my life. It sucks and gets lonely sometimes, specially when I am trying to fit in with a new group of girls and get left out. It still hurts just same as an adult as it did as a teenager. I don't want to feel like this, its just I am only human and have emotions. Dam you Facebook for letting me see things that I rather be oblivious about. I guess in response to this ramble I will just try to be more proactive, its hard to be when I am so used to being rejected. I thought I was an adult and didn't have to deal with this? Fuck drama and politics...and Facebook. I just want to be happy with all aspects of my life, is that so much to ask for?

I am getting tired, thanks for reading,

Becca