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God, its funny how i talk to you about the lilest things, and now, with all thats happened, i havent talked to you, in a long time. i feel ashamed...
and honestly bruce, i am not mad at you, im just, ahh...i dont know, so, instead of me hanging out with you all the time like we used to, id prolly just get so annoyed and scream at you and end up screaming at everyone else, and then id hate myself if i ever did, but god, when you asked whitney what was wrong? what do you think????my cousin just died, im still crying, it still hurts, im sorry i cant be that happy person and just love you all the time, and im sorry if you do and this hurts, i told you not to love me cuz pain is the consequence, and if you want a better explaination about all this, I DONT KNOW, read between the lines and find a better one, cuz i cant.
and its not just you, its everyone.
its me
and it makes me so mad i cry, and i feel like the most horrible person in the world, cuz I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL!!! is that anywheres normal. i feel like ive got this huge cancer of pain inside me, and its just ripping me apart sometimes, and theres no way i can explain it or make it go away.
id like to explain everything, but its so hard, and i just start crying when i try to explain to myself. i cant explain myself and it sucks so bad.
and also, thanks to everyone who left me a comment, that was awesome, some ppl ive known for years didnt even bother to ask me how i was or leave a comment, but my cousins bf can-(and thanks, it was seriously awesome that you care like that, i felt better then i did before, not completely happy, but then again, who is?) anyways, so ya, and screw everyone who didnt cuz you suck. and if it hurts i hope it does cuz im mean and im so horrible, and i hope, i dont even know.
i just suck.
god.
god
god
god
i need you.
we believe, good charlotte
There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night
We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
There's a love that could fall down like rain
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
And no one really knows what they are searching for
This world is crying for so much more
So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every way
We believe
and honestly bruce, i am not mad at you, im just, ahh...i dont know, so, instead of me hanging out with you all the time like we used to, id prolly just get so annoyed and scream at you and end up screaming at everyone else, and then id hate myself if i ever did, but god, when you asked whitney what was wrong? what do you think????my cousin just died, im still crying, it still hurts, im sorry i cant be that happy person and just love you all the time, and im sorry if you do and this hurts, i told you not to love me cuz pain is the consequence, and if you want a better explaination about all this, I DONT KNOW, read between the lines and find a better one, cuz i cant.
and its not just you, its everyone.
its me
and it makes me so mad i cry, and i feel like the most horrible person in the world, cuz I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL!!! is that anywheres normal. i feel like ive got this huge cancer of pain inside me, and its just ripping me apart sometimes, and theres no way i can explain it or make it go away.
id like to explain everything, but its so hard, and i just start crying when i try to explain to myself. i cant explain myself and it sucks so bad.
and also, thanks to everyone who left me a comment, that was awesome, some ppl ive known for years didnt even bother to ask me how i was or leave a comment, but my cousins bf can-(and thanks, it was seriously awesome that you care like that, i felt better then i did before, not completely happy, but then again, who is?) anyways, so ya, and screw everyone who didnt cuz you suck. and if it hurts i hope it does cuz im mean and im so horrible, and i hope, i dont even know.
i just suck.
god.
god
god
god
i need you.
we believe, good charlotte
There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night
We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
There's a love that could fall down like rain
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
And no one really knows what they are searching for
This world is crying for so much more
So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every way
We believe