Umm ...
So I'm going to try this new thing Margo told me try ....
1. I hate you
2. Your fake
3. No one likes you, stop thinking they do
4. Thank you, I love you
5. When will you open your eyes and trust me?
6. Give it up
7. Why do you feel the need to lie?
8. I'm going to miss you
9. I love you
10. I'm sorry
11. When will you realize?
12. There is someone perfect out there for everyone, your just looking in the wrong place
13. BE STRONG
14. He's worthless, you can do so much better
15. I wish you would look past all my flaws ...
So ---- The point of this is to be able to vent and ... the cool thing is I'm the only one that knows who/what it's about! So don't ask me, I won't tell you.
Today was alright. Shannon Russell and I hung out here for a little bit then we called Billy, figuring he stayed home as usuall .. lol. He said that we could come over but he was going to school later. Ok .. so we were on our way over there and we saw him going to school ... what a dork. He called and said that he didn't have to go to school he just had to go at the end of the day and get a phsyical form. So he was like meet you at home ... imm okay weirdo. lol. We got there and hung out and goofed off for the most part, then we decided to go to the mall. Shannon and I got charms for our braclets, I got a Class Of 2007 one! YEAAH! REPRESENT lol :) After the mall we went to Steak and shake ... ohhh good times good times. Next time you try to hit someone with a spitball Billy, make sure you blow OUT and don't SUCK it in! HAHA. Then, we went back to Billy's until around 2:30, then we went to school, to the doc. so he could get his physical and then to the chiropracter .. fun fun. Then Shany Russ and I came back here to hang out ... then I got paranod so we went to Shannon's. My mom called and was making dinner, so I came home .. now here I am.
I don't really feel like updating for whenever the last time I updated lol .. so if I am around you alot .. you know what's been going on ... never ending bullshit.
Tomorrow --- 1 year ... ughh
Shany - I LOVE YOU! Undersand?
Heather - Im glad things worked out, I love you!
Margo/Billy - Everything will work out, I know it sucks but you have each other and that's all that matters. Stay strong and know that im here if either of you need to talk.
Katie - OH my ... you have been there through alot .. for five years you have put up with me .. and I am so thankful to have a friend like you. Sometimes I think you know about me than I know about myself. Thank you so much for everything and I love you till forever!
Russell - I'm sorry, and just know I love you regardless
Westley - Im going to miss you, but like you said it's probably for the best. I wish you the BEST of luck and I hope that you get all you want out of life, I LOVE YOU! --- :-/ :-)
Alright well that's all I can think of right now ... so Good night
"Numb"
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I Love you ..