Sep 10, 2004 11:32
oh what a morning - shit morning so leave work cos having the worst day then what happens on the way home fucking in a car accident yeeew sick. I hate my fucking car i think that is the source of my bad luck.
Sometimes I wonder what is the point to this life.... there is none...its just an experience... what are we experiencing right now??? If your not happy then why live? at the moment I definately dont belive in the saying 'things can only get better' it should be things only keep getting worst.
I feel a bit better now, i have talked about it... I just dont want to loose anything I have right now cos the things I have and the people I have in my life are the only things that are geting me through it.
But the weird thing is , I am causing it?? Am i??? I make something out of something so little but it's like I want it to happen BUT I DONT NOT AT ALL....
I dont want to loose luke by me worrying all the time about things to do between me and him...and it just creates something that wiill make us fight or wotever. I don't know if I am making much sense but this is how I feel. and i want to thank you to the people who make me feel better. Your names go with out saying. You know who u are. and I love you so much.
xox