Why?
I don't know why im in love with you or why i still love you. I feel as if you push me farther and farther away. I know we are not together and i respect that. You do what you please as do i. I know my heart still belongs to you but yours travels around. You can do something and have no feeling what so ever. I regret things i did in the past but you, you could care less what you do. I regret a few things. Remember the time we got in a huge fight over the year book and i was hanging out with Liz and i refused to come see you even though you walked out on me and you knew it wasn't my fault. I was selfish i guess but so were you. You left me, when you knew it wasn't my fault. You know i would do anything for you, but can you honestly sit there and say the same thing. You don't care about me, if you did, you would call me. You would hang out with me on a Saturday after work... all night, not just for a few hours. You would talk to me more at work instead of ignoring me. I feel like you have wiped every memory of us away and you never look back. Maybe its just me but it doesn't seem like you care or would ever want something ever again, right now i dont know if i would either because of the way you treat me. I don't know that guy i used to know. I do anything to get the guy back that i first met. That i could spend every waking hour with, the guy i would get grounded for, for leaving the house and not coming back, the guy i would get excited to see when he came home from Plymouth, the guy i would cry to and would wipe my eyes when i didnt want to go see people. What happened to that person i could make laugh everyday and the person who used to cook meals with me or even stood by my side when i got my wisdom teeth pulled. You stayed by me that whole weekend. I miss that person i used to know and i really would do anything. But thats the past and there is nothing i can do or you can do but move on. I love you and it just sucks you dont feel the same way anymore. I feel like i lost everything i knew or ever had, but thats life.