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[x18justine90x]

tomorrows the wake
and i know i might cry
and i dont want to
its not what he would have done or wanted me to

and last night when i was falling asleep i felt like something was rubbing my belly like he use to

i beleive in that stuff
it idkk relexed me
let me feel the pain
but now i dont nemore
im numb but i dont think i can live without him
he was my gest friend
i saved his life
and he saved mine
he meaned so much to me and now i dont want to do its like a huge part of me is missing that i will never find again
and my mom said i might get over this eventully
but problly not
cuz i dont deal with stuff

but me olivia and keren went to blockbusters this car drove up and it was like the old seniors and fucking angelo was driving the car out of all the people to drive it was him
but
yea funeral and wake are gonne be horrible but
im dont think i will ever be happy on my birthday again.....