...My First Update in FOREVER...

[x0xwendyx0x]

Hey everyone!!! It's been too long. I HAD TO WRITE! Im getting a lot of IMz from people off LiveJournal. Its pretty col to know that people acually read about my life. Someone IMed me and me nd her are gudd friends now. We have so much in common its juss great to talk to people that know where I'm commin from..KEEP EM COMMIN!!! But anyway...Merry Christmas to u all. I hope it was gudd..mine was very awkward(of course). I have sum bad news...well..sort of. Im not sure if I'm guna keep updating my Journal within the next 2 or 3 months or manye 4ever...cuz I'm moving to Conn. Im not sure wat part but my Dad wants to stay away from *her* so..where ever my dad goes I go. I'm juss soo sad because I have to leave Josh. Idk..its juss really depressing..Hopefully I don't move. Josh is my life. And if I lose him..I have nothing. I can't lose 2 loves. 1 is heartbreaking enough. Last night was really a good night. Josh and I went for a walk and I knew where I was going but he had no idea till we got there..but wen we got thea he didnt no why we were there. I took him to the Baseball Field up the street from me. I took him there for 2 reasons..1.because it was a PERFECTLY clear sky night 2.Me and Corey would go there, he would hold me in his arms in the middle of the field laying down in the center and juss..talkin and watching. Corey would have a name for every star that he spotted. I took Josh there because I thought I have to try and see if I can do the same thing me and corey did with him. Sure enough, i held his hand (could would hold my hand) and we walked through the same gate me and Corey always would and I found the exact spot where me and Corey would lay and me and Josh juss layed their lookin at the sky talking about Corey and Love and Life..and everything.I asked Josh, "You want to leave, don't you." He's like, "I'll stay here all night with you." It was so sweet..and then when we were walking back home, we were talking and I was like, "The night that I see a shooting Star on that field with another boy, is the night that I know Corey's heart belongs to me and mine belongs to the boy laying next to me." He's like, "Corey means so much to you. I wish one day I could be as special as him." I really do hope that I go back to that field with Josh and I see a shooter star because I know Corey wants me to be happy and Josh makes me soo happy. He keeps me waking up every day juss like Corey did. I can't lose 2 loves...losing 1 is good enough. Perfect...the day I decide to write in my Journal its all about Corey and Josh. This is acually a pretty good entrie. I can't wait till the day I know I'm gonna be happy for the rest of my life with Josh. OMG!!! MY DREAM!! I had a dream not last night, but the ight before and Corey was in it. We were driving in his car and we were going to the beach..juss like the old times. And we were talkin about happiness. He kept saying, "I want you to be happy..I want you to find true love..someone you love and someone that loves you. Like me..I love you," and I said something..but I couldnt hear what I was saying...That happens all the time. And then Corey was like, "Well, when I'm gone, I need someone to take care of you. I let you know when the time comes." and I said something again and he was like, "He's perfect.." and then i sed suttin agen..of course i dont know wat i said, and corey was like, "I love you, too..and so doesnt he. Don't let him go." And then out of know where, my dream stopped. I juss saw all white..no picture of anything. It was soo weird..and then I woke up to my sister Tricia waking me up saying, "Nina la Wina..u have a fone call my love.." and I was talking to this person and I had no idea who I was talking to or what we were talking about I was juss like, "I'll call u later, I'm sleeping." and then I shut my eyes nd opened up agen and I was like, "wat the fukk.." i didnt no if it was a dream or waht..but it was real cuz i asked tricia and she sed she did wake me up...lol..IDK!!!! Funny stuff...but i guta go. I'll TRY to write lata...bye bye..nd thanks for reading!!!
.|.Love.Christina.|.