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things have been kind of weird lately...
they've been really great but really terrible at the same time.
for some reason i've been really sensitive... with regard to everything - emotions, touch, spirit...
clearly something is going on but i really don't know.
he got a job at northern tier with me for the summer... and even though i'm really excited, we'll hardly see each other.
he will go out on trips with the boys for 6-8 days at a time and be back at base camp for one day.
i hope he'll be around for my birthday.
but i doubt it.
he's made me both really happy and really depressed all in one weekend.
yesterday was pretty good... we took ella to kensington for the afternoon.
my camera battery had died though so i could only take pictures with my phone
(thank goodness for cell phone cameras?)
it was snowy and cold again but it was still really fun - i could tell she loved it... and despite his exhaustion due to flat feet, i think he really enjoyed it too.
but then again, he was a little grumpy... which kind of put a damper on the entire day and resulted in an hour to hour and a half sob session before bed.
woke up and everything was pretty okay.
well, he woke me.
we went to mass this morning at a church we've gone to a few times
its a really nice church (i guess?... its probably a little too modern of a building for me...)
and even though i've been becoming more comfortable with the catholic tradition, i was still really uncomfortable at mass today...
and even though i should probably get comfortable going with him... maybe i just need to go alone?
or maybe we just need to go more.
i dunno.
orright.
i'm done venting to the world now (mostly because it is cold in mevans' basement and i need to feed the puppy...)
they've been really great but really terrible at the same time.
for some reason i've been really sensitive... with regard to everything - emotions, touch, spirit...
clearly something is going on but i really don't know.
he got a job at northern tier with me for the summer... and even though i'm really excited, we'll hardly see each other.
he will go out on trips with the boys for 6-8 days at a time and be back at base camp for one day.
i hope he'll be around for my birthday.
but i doubt it.
he's made me both really happy and really depressed all in one weekend.
yesterday was pretty good... we took ella to kensington for the afternoon.
my camera battery had died though so i could only take pictures with my phone
(thank goodness for cell phone cameras?)
it was snowy and cold again but it was still really fun - i could tell she loved it... and despite his exhaustion due to flat feet, i think he really enjoyed it too.
but then again, he was a little grumpy... which kind of put a damper on the entire day and resulted in an hour to hour and a half sob session before bed.
woke up and everything was pretty okay.
well, he woke me.
we went to mass this morning at a church we've gone to a few times
its a really nice church (i guess?... its probably a little too modern of a building for me...)
and even though i've been becoming more comfortable with the catholic tradition, i was still really uncomfortable at mass today...
and even though i should probably get comfortable going with him... maybe i just need to go alone?
or maybe we just need to go more.
i dunno.
orright.
i'm done venting to the world now (mostly because it is cold in mevans' basement and i need to feed the puppy...)