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Update on the weight loss, last weigh in was Sunday and i was 212lbs. I stepped on my scale in the bathroom about 2 hours ago and was a nice 200lbs. Not too bad.
I'm kinda disappointed in myself. not cause i lost all the weight (I'm uber happy about that!) but more in the fact that i waited so damn long to get my ass in gear. I've been heavy 24 years and only now starting to lose the weight. why did i wait so long? I couldn't tell you, and that frustrates me to no end. for years I've looked at my friends and just wanted to be like them. skinny and beautiful. where was my will-power then?
No matter now, thats in the past and i am moving forward. I'm losing weight and i feel wonderful. i feel beautiful. I felt ok about my looks before but now Im really starting to see it. I've never had anyone tell me i was beautiful or pretty. (yeah ive gotten a 'cute' here and there.. and mostly from my friends) the only one who has ever called me beautiful was Josh and that took almost a year of dating for me to really truly believe it, and I still feel like i dont deserve to be called that.
But i will. No question about it I will be everything i wanted to be. Granted i can make myself short *lol*
On a happy note :D
I've gone down 2 pant sizes now. WOO! only issue is that now I have to get new pants to fit... I went out and got 2 pairs of nice jeans a tiny bit too tight at the moment so when Im down a few more pounds I can get in them XD Its just that i spent $100+ on both together ^_^; so I'll be paying that off on my Lane Bryant card....
my shirts will be ok seeing as they are all a tad snug right now. I will need to have some of my dress shirts taken in so i can keep the arms the nice long length they are now.
Now here's a funny issue I found this morning.. I took a shower and got dressed but i forgot my shirt in my room so i walked outa the bathroom in my bra (and pants) and passing by my mom she said somehting about how bad my bra fit me. so after mesuring and fixing we figured it was because it was so loose around and the cup was too small...
Sooooo I tried on one of her new bras.... it fit.... so now I went from a 38C to a 36D @)_@ how random is that? I lost weight to go UP a cup size.. not really worried... but still. that now means i need a new bra. and Victoria secret isn't cheep.... so after I pay my $350 health inc I will scrape up enough money to get a new bra... *sigh*
I'm kinda disappointed in myself. not cause i lost all the weight (I'm uber happy about that!) but more in the fact that i waited so damn long to get my ass in gear. I've been heavy 24 years and only now starting to lose the weight. why did i wait so long? I couldn't tell you, and that frustrates me to no end. for years I've looked at my friends and just wanted to be like them. skinny and beautiful. where was my will-power then?
No matter now, thats in the past and i am moving forward. I'm losing weight and i feel wonderful. i feel beautiful. I felt ok about my looks before but now Im really starting to see it. I've never had anyone tell me i was beautiful or pretty. (yeah ive gotten a 'cute' here and there.. and mostly from my friends) the only one who has ever called me beautiful was Josh and that took almost a year of dating for me to really truly believe it, and I still feel like i dont deserve to be called that.
But i will. No question about it I will be everything i wanted to be. Granted i can make myself short *lol*
On a happy note :D
I've gone down 2 pant sizes now. WOO! only issue is that now I have to get new pants to fit... I went out and got 2 pairs of nice jeans a tiny bit too tight at the moment so when Im down a few more pounds I can get in them XD Its just that i spent $100+ on both together ^_^; so I'll be paying that off on my Lane Bryant card....
my shirts will be ok seeing as they are all a tad snug right now. I will need to have some of my dress shirts taken in so i can keep the arms the nice long length they are now.
Now here's a funny issue I found this morning.. I took a shower and got dressed but i forgot my shirt in my room so i walked outa the bathroom in my bra (and pants) and passing by my mom she said somehting about how bad my bra fit me. so after mesuring and fixing we figured it was because it was so loose around and the cup was too small...
Sooooo I tried on one of her new bras.... it fit.... so now I went from a 38C to a 36D @)_@ how random is that? I lost weight to go UP a cup size.. not really worried... but still. that now means i need a new bra. and Victoria secret isn't cheep.... so after I pay my $350 health inc I will scrape up enough money to get a new bra... *sigh*