I Don't Know What To Do Anymore. .
I have had a lot to think about lately. . A lot has been going on these days. I haven't talked to my dad in about a month. . I have been sick for the past too weeks and now I'm sicker. . Austins back but hes under house arrest and now I'm sick so it's making it hard for me to be able to hang out with him. . I have missed so much school that I don't even know whats going on in class anymore. . which makes me feel like a dumbass. . I don't know I feel so behind that I wish I had a rewind button and could just go back and change it. . I feel like I can't do anything anymore. . and I'm so sick of being at home. . and then the guy I like isn't sure if he wants to be with me. . I jus hate life right now. . And I'm getting so fucking sick of people being so fucking gay about everything. . and there being so much damn drama. . once just once I want something to go good for longer then just five minutes. . I'm sick of having stuff come and go so freaking fast like it always has for me. . I mean I know I should be happy because I'm a lot better off then a lot of other people. . but I just want to be happy for once. . but maybe I'm asking to much . . but that's all I have to say. .