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sorry i posted so much today...amn its fucked
Im sitting here like a fuckin 3 year old bawling my eyes out. It hurts because I fucked so much up and fucked up people. Fucked up my self. Im talking to lindsey and yes we are being "nice" the truth is just comming out thats all. SO much Im losing so much, Im falling apart.
I dont want sympathy I dont want anything I just want my life to be normal. How about them good grades?How about them friends? How about the perfect family?I want all that. I dont wnat to cry anymore. It hurts to cry but its been put into my everyday life. I cry when I go to sleep when I wake up when I go to school at lunch...I sick of this shit. WHy does it have to be this way. I dont have as much as I thought i did going for me. I just keep fuckin it up over and over again.
Im sitting here like a fuckin 3 year old bawling my eyes out. It hurts because I fucked so much up and fucked up people. Fucked up my self. Im talking to lindsey and yes we are being "nice" the truth is just comming out thats all. SO much Im losing so much, Im falling apart.
I dont want sympathy I dont want anything I just want my life to be normal. How about them good grades?How about them friends? How about the perfect family?I want all that. I dont wnat to cry anymore. It hurts to cry but its been put into my everyday life. I cry when I go to sleep when I wake up when I go to school at lunch...I sick of this shit. WHy does it have to be this way. I dont have as much as I thought i did going for me. I just keep fuckin it up over and over again.