i just can't sleep anymore.
it's almost 6 in the morning..
i went to Tom's Last night.
i actually had alotta fun=]
Damn, i havent seen a lot of people who were there in a long time..
i need to get out more.
Mark Silva was there.
i miss him so fucking much =\
me, emilia and alexis may hang out tomorrow?
but i highly doubt that i will cuz i've got shit to do.
wish i could tho!
i love those girls.
Lately i've been going to bed at like..5
it fucking sucks man.
cept that one night i was up til 8 but went to sleep because i didn't want my mom to know that i was awake.
Life can really suck sometimes!!
Theres a fucking lot going on..
my parents are fucking two-faced.
i'm in love with Kevin..but theres way too much going on.
i can't even explain..
my mom told him that he couldn't see me anymore.
but she knows VERY well that thats NOT going to happen.
i don't know what to do anymore.
He told me that he wants to be with me For ever and he wanted to be with me until the day he dies...
i'm only fucking 14 years old!
i mean i love him with all my heart..
but he can't put all that on me..it kinda freaks me out.
at the rate it's going we may not even make it thru the next few months..
but if you want something really bad and you work at it then it will probly come out the way you want it ..right?
i sure hope.
i wish my parents weren't so gay.
My mom threatend Kevin..she told him that she was going to send him to jail..WHAT THE FUCK. and she's all acting "oh i love you, i wont do anything to hurt you." OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES BITCH LOOK WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME.
i hate life right now.
i had a really nice break tho.
can you believe school is starting up again?
in like less then a day.
SAD.
so theres this song on The Game cd that i really love.
Here's the Chorus..
if i could start my life from scratch..
if i could take away the pain of the past..
if i had another chance i would do just that.
I'd give anything jus' to go right back.
it makes me think of everything i've been thru..and how much pain i've put myself thru.. but i'm not gonna go on about it because it's not all my fault.
2 nights ago Kenny and Kevin were walking around the neighborhood until 230 and they said that they walked by my house like 5 times..so tonight while i was watching tv i kept staring out of the indow just incase i saw them..but i really just really dissapointing myself because i knew they weren't going to..
i called kevin's house and like 2..there was no answer. so i thought that they were walking..mmm..
i'm not gonna go to sleep tonight because i can't. I swear if i sleep i'm gonna like .. die.
oh well hey guess what? TUPAC IS ALIVE. hah, i knew it all along.. 0:-)
i went to Best Buy today and bought 2 cd's.
Tupac- Me against the World and T.I.-Urban Legend. Which..by the way..is tremendously good. (he's so sexy!)
um..so..i really don't have anything that's appropriate to say at the moment..
i'll go then.
-xOx-