Why does it hurt so much to loose the one you care about?

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***Life sucks and then you die, so they say! Well I haven't died yet but I really wish I could! I really like Trevor(a.k.a. Jessica's BF) But I don't care any more! She left yeterday to go to California for a month and I'm hoping I can get him to forgive me for something I didn't do! Sunday, January 9th at 6:46 pm he took me and Danielle out on a date thingy! We went up to Lake Laniere and parked! I wanted to rape him but I coudn't rape the willing! He even said he wanted to fuck so it's not like I was having a loosing battle on that one! Danielle had to be at my house by 9:00 but he dropped us off at 8:05 so she would have enough time to get home! At first it was one of those feelings of "bend over and kiss the hell out of him you stupid bitch" but he said he would come back later! I asked him if he was sure and he said yeah. He got my number so if he couldn't make it he could call me and tell me! He was on his way to Boiling Springs to drop off his buddy so he could get a peice of ass b/c Danielle wouldn't give him any! LOL! Danielle Got a call from them around 8:26 and then left like a bat out of hell! She said she was leaving b4 They got back! W/E! I called her at 9:30 and she had only made it to Inman, which is only 15 minutes away...not 1 fucking hour! N-E-Ways, at first I thought She'd met them b/c she did say Trevor was hot and that's all she needed was for me to catch her fucking the guy I liked! Yeah he's got a G/F and she's my mom's boss's daughter but I could really give a shit right now! But anyways...I found out she didn't meet them b/c Trevor had told Terry that after he droped Daniel off he went home to his phsyco bitch! She beats on him, what kind of G/F is that? Anyways, someone found out we were together Sunday night and told Jessica's little sister that we were together and she went back and told Jessica! Jessica asked Trevor and now he says he doesn't want anything to do with me! I don't know why b/c i didn't tell anyone! I wrote him a poem and a couple of letters explaining my self to him and appoligizing for something I didn't do! But that's why it hurts I guess!
***On another note! Danielle was over at the house last night crying about her ex Henry even though she cheated on him! I had to comfort her! She's best friend and no one hurts MY girl!
***Well enough phsyco babble bull shit! wonk wonk wonk!