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So lets sum up my day shall we? yea it really sucked ass. i was working a nice short day from 12:45 - 5:30 and getting a break from these 8 hour days. i knew the day wasent going to be 100% good because i had to say goodbye to matt after i punched out. well little did i know i became a complete fuck up friday night. i only worked 6-10 that night and it was on express. apperantly a secret shopper decided to come in. and for those of you dont know we have to ask every jerk who comes into our lanes if theyd like to save 10% by opening up a target card. weather its 1.00 or 100.00. well it musta been that one time i was out of it and the secret shopper caught me off not asking the asshole and went to my bosses about it. i worked sat 945-630 and all that time no one could say anything to me, so they wait until sunday afternoon to say something? not to mention the GSTL who put the pin on me didnt even close that night. she left at 630 or 7 that night. so just that 30 or 60 mins of being my other boss she thought she was special or something. and she is also the same person who bitched about my shirt being maroon and not red enough for work. and she is also the ONLY one who said something about this secret shopper bulslhit. she tried telling me shes been in my seat before and she knows how i feel and to keep my chin up and to learn from my mistakes and that the world is like a big clasroom and we learn all the time and blah blah blah. and she 'felt bad' for making me upset enough to cry, yes, i cried. i had other things building up inside me that i didnt care to share with the world. then im told i miss a secret shopper like i killed somone and i lost it. so adam and pat and a few other people watched me be upset in the break room while i was texting bill back and forth. i didnt even wanna be on my register anymore after that. it woulda been nice to be told AFTER my shift was done. and it wasent any easier saying goodbye to matt cuz there i went balling my eyes out again. if im not fucking up. im losing friends. im tired of not being good enough and losing all the good people in my life. it seems i never win no matter what i do. and iv honestly never been pinned out like this until lil miss im special and i think im queen of gstl's got hired. tomm i dont work which im super duper happy about. and i guess this is what i get for taking that shift friday night for more hours. fuck you.