Nov 05, 2006 16:00
Well here it goes...today November 5, 2006- will mark 3 weeks and 2 days that Rylie has been born and me becoming a mother physically. It has been an amazing journey to this chapter in my life. I feel like from the second i started pushing to the moment she was born sometime inbetween i became a new person...a new title was giving to me- a three letter word that accumulates into so much more and echoes...MOM. I want nothing more then to be an example- a light if you may.
The couple nights in the hospital were very tiring and interesting and yet boring and rewarding all at the same time. Rylie was immediately after being born was put on a set schedule of feeding- which was every 2 hours- and this continued thru the night as well...the nurses would come in even if you were sleeping to check on her and wake you up to feed the little one even if sleep was all you wanted after all those riguorous hours of pain and suffering and what to you felt like hell. At the moment it didnt matter it was no longer about you..your world has changed and no longer was i allowed to be selfish. At the same time it was wonderful and inticing.
Anyways...back to the story or whatever this is...
I got discharged out of the hospital on Sunday and Rylie was discharged on Monday nite around 6ish..she was not allowed to go home yet because she had newborn Jaundice which has to do with red blood cells if you dont know. Google it...if you need to. Bringing her home finally was wonderful and i was just happy to be out of the hospital room after so many days.
The first couple nights after being let go was not as bad as i thought it would be...it seemed like my body had somewhat already adjusted and knew exactly what it needed to do- it was ready to care of Rylie and make sure she is feed and healthy and ready to change the world. haha...i am so dramtic... so...thus far after packages of diapers, some sleepless nights, figuring out the diaper genie, washing tons of clothes and the constant swaying and bouncing up and down we have come to 3 weeks...
3 weeks...here we are i am great to say! I am pretty much on a set schedule with a surprise or two here or there. She usually sleeps around the same time and wakes around the same time everyday/nite to eat. Rob loves takin the nite shift when he gets home from work as long as i make him a bottle before i go to bed so i can catch up on some missed hours of sleep. He is amazing and has helped so much its ridiculous. People who thought he was to tough and rough for me are dillusional and blah if you ask me. My mother has been amazing...she loves watching her and just admiring her i believe- my father does the same thing- when she sleeps he likes to hold her and talk to her as if she could understand every single thing he was saying. He sits in his chair at times just watching her sleep for hours. My family and friends i believe are what got me to the point of where i am now...without them i would not be as sane or grounded as i am not. I would not be as prepared. My friend have supported me since the beginning and there has been nothing more i could have asked from them. The calls and the messages have been encouraging and have made me proud of what God has blessed me with.
Rylie is slowly revealing her personality which is wonderful- she is a great little baby. I could now say i would be nothing without her.