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I think this is how it ends? Or is it how it begins? I really don't know anymore. I don't understand how I can be so happy /in love /everything earlier.. and now so freaking miserable. If there's one thing I hate right now, it's this feeling of loneliness. I know it'll pass, but it almost makes me feel like.. I want to drop out of school.
I don't think I can make it, it's not too late, yet. But on the other hand, no matter what I do, I still have to go out and face the world. I don't think I can take it. I just want to close the door and . . .
But I can't do that, because I don't know what's next.
And I know that if I did . . . you would never recover.
Okay, maybe I'm dreaming, but I know you would eventually move on. Move past this blue eyed boy with nothing to say but hopes for the future. Right now.. I don't know. I feel like such a downer. All the time. There's just so very much bad in my life and just one thing that's good, that I'm holding onto. Because.. I think this one thing.. can save me.
So won't you save me?
Originally published at x0pheRx //:: One more time. You can comment here or there.