Fate
All summer, I've hung out with M. She has been awesome to me. She's made me feel better about myself, and she's really been a better friend than a lot of my friends this summer (except for A and E, of course).
Halfway through summer, her cousin E and her have spoken about this thing called fate. It's where every summer they both hang out with totally new people, and the next summer, they are nothing to them anymore. It's nice that they told me, but it sucks because I might be next, and I really don't want to be next because I've had an awesome summer, and M is really cool.
I think back to what I call my friends, and I never realized how outside of the group I've been for the past two years. It has always been seperated between the "Culvers" and "others." I never really knew where I fell in the group. I'm close to R who is a Culver, and I used to be real close with T and little T in the other group.
I hated that since freshmen year, and I've always known that I was dragged into the group because I am totally a bad socializer, but it was good to find new friends and see where that could lead me.
Now I'm going to be a Junior in less than a week, and I don't know where I belong anymore. I don't know where people will be sitting in the morning or who I'll be hanging out with. It's so complicated. I know the "Asian group" has noticed my absence, so I wonder if they're thinking where I'll be this coming year. I don't know either, and I don't want to be flipping back and forth constantly.
Right now, I just want to change that so-called fate and stick with M because I can actually talk to her and have fun.
It sucks when my two best friends (A and E) go to completely different schools. It also sucks that A is finally a senior....
I shouldn't over think this so much! I think I need to talk to A, E, or R pronto.
Halfway through summer, her cousin E and her have spoken about this thing called fate. It's where every summer they both hang out with totally new people, and the next summer, they are nothing to them anymore. It's nice that they told me, but it sucks because I might be next, and I really don't want to be next because I've had an awesome summer, and M is really cool.
I think back to what I call my friends, and I never realized how outside of the group I've been for the past two years. It has always been seperated between the "Culvers" and "others." I never really knew where I fell in the group. I'm close to R who is a Culver, and I used to be real close with T and little T in the other group.
I hated that since freshmen year, and I've always known that I was dragged into the group because I am totally a bad socializer, but it was good to find new friends and see where that could lead me.
Now I'm going to be a Junior in less than a week, and I don't know where I belong anymore. I don't know where people will be sitting in the morning or who I'll be hanging out with. It's so complicated. I know the "Asian group" has noticed my absence, so I wonder if they're thinking where I'll be this coming year. I don't know either, and I don't want to be flipping back and forth constantly.
Right now, I just want to change that so-called fate and stick with M because I can actually talk to her and have fun.
It sucks when my two best friends (A and E) go to completely different schools. It also sucks that A is finally a senior....
I shouldn't over think this so much! I think I need to talk to A, E, or R pronto.