Merry friggin Christmas
Well I feel like kickin somebody's ass, and to be truthful, the two people that i'd love to break in half are both male...How bout that?
The first guy deserves it because he broke my friends heart...unknowingly but still broke her heart nonetheless. Now her Christmas is gonna suck. Gee...I think my phone is going to make a few phone calls tonight..
The second is that damn doctor. I don't know whether I wrote about the sweater that I got for my grandmother for Christmas, but i'm going to return it. I SHOULDN"T HAVE TO FRIGGIN RETURN SOMETHING BECAUSE THEY"RE NOT HERE. I wish I could go back in time and be there when she called to say that she was having the surgery and tell her not to. Tell her that it's a bad idea, that she wasn't gonna make it. If that wouldn't work I wish I could tell her how much I love her and how much i miss her...Most of all, I wish I hadn't given up hope. Hope . . . the essence of the holidays... She loved the holidays. I wish I could just skip Christmas, that way I wouldnt' have to deal with it. I wouldn't have to deal with the fact that she wasn't gonna be here because her doctor decided 4 EXTRA won't hurt. She'll be fine...WELL SHE"S NOT.
We're going to get the Christmas tree today. Maybe that's what set me off. I don't know. I'm not really lookin forward to this...I thought I could do it, but I can't. I can't keep pretending that everything is ok...Because it's not...and I'm not...
The first guy deserves it because he broke my friends heart...unknowingly but still broke her heart nonetheless. Now her Christmas is gonna suck. Gee...I think my phone is going to make a few phone calls tonight..
The second is that damn doctor. I don't know whether I wrote about the sweater that I got for my grandmother for Christmas, but i'm going to return it. I SHOULDN"T HAVE TO FRIGGIN RETURN SOMETHING BECAUSE THEY"RE NOT HERE. I wish I could go back in time and be there when she called to say that she was having the surgery and tell her not to. Tell her that it's a bad idea, that she wasn't gonna make it. If that wouldn't work I wish I could tell her how much I love her and how much i miss her...Most of all, I wish I hadn't given up hope. Hope . . . the essence of the holidays... She loved the holidays. I wish I could just skip Christmas, that way I wouldnt' have to deal with it. I wouldn't have to deal with the fact that she wasn't gonna be here because her doctor decided 4 EXTRA won't hurt. She'll be fine...WELL SHE"S NOT.
We're going to get the Christmas tree today. Maybe that's what set me off. I don't know. I'm not really lookin forward to this...I thought I could do it, but I can't. I can't keep pretending that everything is ok...Because it's not...and I'm not...