gr.
so i was forced to go to sunday school today, and we all know how megan totally hates going there. well i do and i was so mad. but w/e. as much as i hate to go, i need it. im so bad off right now i need anything that will help me. nd we went to service too, so we were there for 4 n a 1/2 hrs. ugh. those ppl there r so incredibly annyoing and i dont lyk it. they r not friendly, but we have these 2 hot college guys teaching us this month n there SOO good. so next week ::i kno im going to be forced to go bc the bitch has this little plan in her head that my lil "punk depressed" mood will blow ovr bc its just a "phase" and that going to church will make it go by faster n then she'll have her sweet lil baby girl back:: im going to find sumone to go with me bc i am NOT going back by myself.
so this week im going to try my hardest to NOT repeat last week, bc it was HORRIBLE and i dont want to go threw it again. im starting ovr fresh.
im going to be 15 in a month. wow.
And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be
And the first time That You opened Your eyes
did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips Did You know that it would change this world forever
And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here
To look back and think that This baby would one day save me In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might live
To look back and think that This baby would one day save me
And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life
the end.