cross-posted from my GJ ... PLEASE read.
um ... wow. i don't know what to say really.
um ... my friend is dead. he commited suicide last night. while i was in html class.
yep ... murder suiced. he killed someone else before him. yeah. crazy shit.
yeah .... he called me EXACTALLY 40 minutes before he did it. but i was in class. his name was Paul ... and he was in love with me. i recently found that out. and i now feel like shit becuz i didn't love him back. nor did i even really care for him becuz he was, in fact, annoying. but ... it doesn't change the fact that he was my friend!
the story ;;
when we got home from html class, my grandma told my mom that there had been a shooting on paul's street (east way). and my mom knew she knew the street, she just couldn't figure out where from. well ... then it dawned on her that it was my friend's street. and there was only ONE apt complex on his street ... that he lived in. well ... i'm like, paying no attention to it, cuz i didn't think it'd be paul. i figured i'd call him today and find out what happened. well, that aint gunna happen.
uh ... anyways ... last night they found out it was a male that killed the female. and then they changed it to a juvinial (sp?) male that did it. and my mom, grandma, and i were jokin' that "oooh, it's paul!" and .... then this moring they found out he was 16. and in a joking way i'z all "it problly was paul!" and we laughed ... CUZ WE WERE JOKING!!!! but then, after we got bubblez we found out .... it was paul. becuz they released names. i was in shock. i still am. he loved me. i have proof.
so yeah, we found out, n my mom's callin' everyone cuz he was a good friend of mine, annoying at times, but we were friends. he came to my bday party n took me somewhere on my bday and he invited me to movies n we talked on the phone for long ass periods of time when he did get me on the phone. so yeah. we were friends. but she calls my aunt vicky, my aunt julie, my aunt deanna (bubblez's step-mom), my aunt mere, my aunt dani, my grandpa, my uncle, my aunt stephanie ... and then when we got home, we went down to the neighbor's to tell her!
anyways ... supposedly ... paul went up to the neighbors, her son (MY CUZIN, JOHNATHON'S, FRIEND) answered the door, paul asked for his mom, she came to the door, he shot her, then shot himself.
i know, jake told me not to feel like i'm to blame, but .... i do.
paul loved me. i didn't love him. he always used to talk about suicide on the phone to me. but paul seemed like he was one of the people that said they wanted to do something, but they wouldn't; so i didn't pay any attention to that.
also ... one time we were on the phone, he said that he wanted to kill a neighbor of his becuz she went to his apt and complained becuz his music was too loud becuz she ran a day care and the kids there were sleeping. once again, i did not pay attention cuz ... he's teenager ... likes killing games, lotsa guys do, and ... lotsa people say they wanna hurt someone but the DON'T DO IT!!!!
anyways ... i'm in shock. i don't know what to do. i haven't cried. yet. but i might. i don't know though. =/
*` ... here's some links. the last 3 you can log in as me
e-mail: mandabear2007@hotmail.com
pass: moof
http://www.ncnnow.com/index.php?module=ContentExpress&func=display&btitle=CE&mid=&ceid=555
http://www.redding.com/redd/nw_local/article/0,2232,REDD_17533_3201715,00.html (this pisses me off ... they didn't even fuckin' spell his last name right. "McCalister". dumb asses)
http://www.redding.com/redd/nw_local/article/0,2232,REDD_17533_3200708,00.html
http://www.redding.com/redd/nw_local/article/0,2232,REDD_17533_3199406,00.html
um ... my friend is dead. he commited suicide last night. while i was in html class.
yep ... murder suiced. he killed someone else before him. yeah. crazy shit.
yeah .... he called me EXACTALLY 40 minutes before he did it. but i was in class. his name was Paul ... and he was in love with me. i recently found that out. and i now feel like shit becuz i didn't love him back. nor did i even really care for him becuz he was, in fact, annoying. but ... it doesn't change the fact that he was my friend!
the story ;;
when we got home from html class, my grandma told my mom that there had been a shooting on paul's street (east way). and my mom knew she knew the street, she just couldn't figure out where from. well ... then it dawned on her that it was my friend's street. and there was only ONE apt complex on his street ... that he lived in. well ... i'm like, paying no attention to it, cuz i didn't think it'd be paul. i figured i'd call him today and find out what happened. well, that aint gunna happen.
uh ... anyways ... last night they found out it was a male that killed the female. and then they changed it to a juvinial (sp?) male that did it. and my mom, grandma, and i were jokin' that "oooh, it's paul!" and .... then this moring they found out he was 16. and in a joking way i'z all "it problly was paul!" and we laughed ... CUZ WE WERE JOKING!!!! but then, after we got bubblez we found out .... it was paul. becuz they released names. i was in shock. i still am. he loved me. i have proof.
so yeah, we found out, n my mom's callin' everyone cuz he was a good friend of mine, annoying at times, but we were friends. he came to my bday party n took me somewhere on my bday and he invited me to movies n we talked on the phone for long ass periods of time when he did get me on the phone. so yeah. we were friends. but she calls my aunt vicky, my aunt julie, my aunt deanna (bubblez's step-mom), my aunt mere, my aunt dani, my grandpa, my uncle, my aunt stephanie ... and then when we got home, we went down to the neighbor's to tell her!
anyways ... supposedly ... paul went up to the neighbors, her son (MY CUZIN, JOHNATHON'S, FRIEND) answered the door, paul asked for his mom, she came to the door, he shot her, then shot himself.
i know, jake told me not to feel like i'm to blame, but .... i do.
paul loved me. i didn't love him. he always used to talk about suicide on the phone to me. but paul seemed like he was one of the people that said they wanted to do something, but they wouldn't; so i didn't pay any attention to that.
also ... one time we were on the phone, he said that he wanted to kill a neighbor of his becuz she went to his apt and complained becuz his music was too loud becuz she ran a day care and the kids there were sleeping. once again, i did not pay attention cuz ... he's teenager ... likes killing games, lotsa guys do, and ... lotsa people say they wanna hurt someone but the DON'T DO IT!!!!
anyways ... i'm in shock. i don't know what to do. i haven't cried. yet. but i might. i don't know though. =/
*` ... here's some links. the last 3 you can log in as me
e-mail: mandabear2007@hotmail.com
pass: moof
http://www.ncnnow.com/index.php?module=ContentExpress&func=display&btitle=CE&mid=&ceid=555
http://www.redding.com/redd/nw_local/article/0,2232,REDD_17533_3201715,00.html (this pisses me off ... they didn't even fuckin' spell his last name right. "McCalister". dumb asses)
http://www.redding.com/redd/nw_local/article/0,2232,REDD_17533_3200708,00.html
http://www.redding.com/redd/nw_local/article/0,2232,REDD_17533_3199406,00.html