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so ya my life has pretty much sucked lately. i hate school i dont want to go but i really have no choice.
i love christian but i think with the present circumstances it can't really last for much longer. it makes me sad and happy at the same time. i feel like breaking up with him could mean a new life for me and i can just do w/e i want. sometimes i feel like he is holding me back. its going to be sad however b/c i do love him.
idk i think maybe i have sacrificed more for this relationship than I should have and even though i love him with all my heart i just think it is coming to that point where its time to move on. thats not really a good feeling!
anyways...if we do break up im am thinking about finishing my AA and then moving back up to orlando and getting an apartment. I think it would be good for me to have a change and be single for a long time!
<3 COLE
i love christian but i think with the present circumstances it can't really last for much longer. it makes me sad and happy at the same time. i feel like breaking up with him could mean a new life for me and i can just do w/e i want. sometimes i feel like he is holding me back. its going to be sad however b/c i do love him.
idk i think maybe i have sacrificed more for this relationship than I should have and even though i love him with all my heart i just think it is coming to that point where its time to move on. thats not really a good feeling!
anyways...if we do break up im am thinking about finishing my AA and then moving back up to orlando and getting an apartment. I think it would be good for me to have a change and be single for a long time!
<3 COLE