guess whos back...back again...
wow, its been oh...(looks at watch, but doesnt have one) a month since i've written lol. june went by so fast. axel came home :), my birthday, washington dc, school ending, going to the beach, hanging out with friends, its been awesome. ive been having so much fun. i'm so glad axels home! i missed him so much while he was at school, he doesnt even know. and now i miss him again while hes at camp. lol not at camp, working at one. i get to visit him on wednesdays which is fun bc i get to see him and meet some of his friends but he has to work most of the time so we dont really get to talk much. he calls but, still, you know how that is, its not the same as in person obviously. its not his fault, i know he has to work, im just complaining a bit i guess about the amount of time im getting to spend with him now hes home lol. but boy do i look forward to saturdays and wednesdays. those are the best days of the week for me. all week i look forward to those days and want the week to go by faster, while at the same time dont want summer to fly by, as its doing. so i guess im a bit torn in that aspect. the other day when i got to go visit him was nice though, after he was done working we just got to sit together and hang out and relax. and that was really nice. we also recently had our one year anniversary, which was really nice too. we went and had dinner at the verve, he didnt like his tuna lol. dinner was nice, i had a lot of fun that night. he also gave me some cool stuff, things i thought were super nice so i started crying a bit, and i think he thought i was crying bc i didnt like it lol, when in fact i was crying bc i liked everything so much. which i guess doesnt make much sense. lol. oh well i guess my entries would actually make sense if i wrote more than once a month. im trying to cram everything from the last month into this tiny space. ive been crying a lot though, well not a lot, but i kinda feel bad bc sometimes he takes me home and when we're saying goodbye i cry a little. and i feel bad bc i dont want axel to feel bad but i just have so much fun with him and i just start and i cant stop and its hard not being able to see him all the time like some other people get to. and all the while i know i have to say goodbye for good at the end of the summer, i guess that weighs somewhat heavily on my mind. i dont want to have to say goodbye. you'd think i'd be good at it by now, but the truth is it gets harder and harder each time. it should be getting easy for me. if that makes sense. gosh i dont want to think about that right now. haha hmm...what else. i can't wait til tomorrow...bc guess what day it is...saturday! i cant wait to hang out with him, hopefully we'll get to go mini golfing if its not bad weather which i hope its not bc that would be really fun. so im crossing my fingers and hoping it doesnt rain. oh yah i almost forgot! i got a brand new car to drive last week! its a red honda civic, i love it. i get good gas mileage and now i have a car i can go visit axel which is a plus yay! and it also makes hanging out with people easier bc i dont have to ask for rides anymore. and...and...i dont have much else to talka bout. the people at mcd's are bastards though, i asked more for more hours, they gave me three more. whoopdeedoo. and theyre giving new people working there double the hours. doesnt seem to make much sense to me. its actually making me quite mad.lol. i hafta work tomorrow, but i like the new manager hes nice. so i like working saturday mornings. well i guess ill wrap this one up and go hang with my padre a bit since it's his birthday, and by hang out i mean eat birthday cake. and then after that i think ill relax and watch some tv and wait for axel to call. although i have a sinking suspicion he wont since its raining a lot and i dont want him to get all wet just to talk to me. i get to see him tomorrow so its not that big a deal if he doesnt, it just matters that he would if it was nicer weather. he probably will though even though its raining bc hes awesome like that. hes awesome...so awesome. lol i bet you faithful readers *cough*(what faithful readers? what am i talking about?) are getting bored with my jibber jabber about axel. but i dont care its my journal. and you dont meet someone like him often.*sigh* hes just genuinely the nicest kid you'll ever meet. hmm...could be why i love him so much lol. im a lucky girl. :) peace, <3 l.a.r.i.s.s.a<3