. . .Depression. . .
Hey all, Everyone talked me into writing in this thing again so here is what Im gunna say. . .I'm leaving on Wednesday. . .I really dont wanna come back but unfortunatlly I have to I'm glad to leave though and get away from all this shit but I have no way outta it. . .I cried myself to sleep again. . .Whats happening here. . . I want it to rain so bad! rain makes me feel better a lot of the time. . . Damn I really fucked up huh? I shouldnt have done it. . . .Gosh fucking damnit!!!!!!!! Whatever I dont know what to do nemore. . . My friends say they're there for me but they dont seem to show it. . .None of them ever call me to see if I'm okay I always call them :'( whatever.. .. .. I miss my cousin he always made me happy but now he cant even tell me what I did wrong Im really not happy at all. ..I really feel lonely and everyone on my chatterbox for xanga kinda makes me feel like shit becuz my true friends DonT! care becuz they would at least try to call me adn its their fault I feel so lonely newayz but whatever. . .I;m thinking about forever and truthfully forever could be tomorrow. . .. . . ..Who knows maybe on my way to Sacramento We will get in a tragic car accident and die!!!! Damn I do hope so. . .Me and wesley could be together once again. . . Damn I cant stop crying....Im so weak. . . .I cant believe Im telling all of u this. . .I dont even cry in front of my parents and I NEVER tell ANYONE how I feel, I guess this is my way to vent but it isnt helping ='(....Well Imma go. . .no love