its not unusual to be loved by anyone
I think that every year as the holidays pass and it feels less and less like that particular holiday its directly due to the fact that I don't have green construction paper christmas trees on the refridgerator or a holiday reef made out of a paper plate or oats and glitter in a plastic bag to sprinkle on the lawn for santas reindeer, but more so I don't have the one person I want to spend everyday of my winter break with. Christmas time always reminds me of past relationships, or the lack of relationship when I see people holding hands in the cold (alright its florida its not ever really cold, but chilly nevertheless) which always seems to make me sad. Plus I always have the annual Bistarkey christmas dinner, aka: world war three fight to look forward to. But this year I have someone special, some one who makes me feel beautiful and that is something that I never thought that I would feel again. Even though hes two thousand miles away right now, every time he tells me he misses me I just melt. He doesn't know how much hes done for me and how much he means to me but Im just glad that hes in my life. So for all of you who, like me and christmas usualy makes you sad I hope you find something that brings you joy like I have and of corse happy holidays, merry christmas etc.
