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I'm making myself a food log.
I'm excited, I've always loved the challenge of following one and I dont know why I stopped
:) :) :)
I have found my soulmate.
We're complete, both of us, we've known eachother before without knowing what was missing in both of our lives.
And that thing isn't called love. Nope this isn't a high school thing anymore. This is adulthood.
It's called completeness, or something. just, simply, god damn complete.
I feel whole.
I'm disordered still and he knows. He's not trying to stop me, wich is exactly what he should do. Just the fact that he's not trying, and that I see him suffer when we talk about it makes me want to be better. I want to be good for myself so I can me happy with him.
But I need this Food log, to be in control.
I'm finaly motivated and I won't let it go, no matter how it hurts.
I won't hurt him. I won't I wont. I hope
Jan. 12th : Total (350)
Apple (80)
1 toast (60)
Baby carrots (50)
Small bowl of cereal (100)
Free calories (60)
Jan. 13th : Total (300)
1 toast (60)
Cereal (100)
Free calories (140)
Will be continued !
xoxoxox
I'm excited, I've always loved the challenge of following one and I dont know why I stopped
:) :) :)
I have found my soulmate.
We're complete, both of us, we've known eachother before without knowing what was missing in both of our lives.
And that thing isn't called love. Nope this isn't a high school thing anymore. This is adulthood.
It's called completeness, or something. just, simply, god damn complete.
I feel whole.
I'm disordered still and he knows. He's not trying to stop me, wich is exactly what he should do. Just the fact that he's not trying, and that I see him suffer when we talk about it makes me want to be better. I want to be good for myself so I can me happy with him.
But I need this Food log, to be in control.
I'm finaly motivated and I won't let it go, no matter how it hurts.
I won't hurt him. I won't I wont. I hope
Jan. 12th : Total (350)
Apple (80)
1 toast (60)
Baby carrots (50)
Small bowl of cereal (100)
Free calories (60)
Jan. 13th : Total (300)
1 toast (60)
Cereal (100)
Free calories (140)
Will be continued !
xoxoxox