Why?
I don't know why I even bother. Ever since I started with that stupid schoolwork, I've gotten in a bad mood.
And Aurielle and Alaina usually cause it the stupid bad moods. I hate feeling like this all the time; like EVERYTHING bugs me...everything's annoying; I always just want to PUNCH something!!!!!
I just can't STAND living with EITHER of them, Aurielle or Alaina! It's like they just TRY to ruin my life!! They hate me. And I know it too. Aurielle, quite frequently, tells me she hates me. I don't even know what to think anymore. She's been doing this for a long time now, and it's probably true. How can my own sister hate me? And then look at Alaina. She doesn't like me either. What do I think of it?
Then there's other stuff. Even God. It's like EVERY time I pray, something BAD happens to me! I ask Him for help, something bad happens. I just pray...to pray. Something bad happens. Or whatever. Should I keep praying? I know I will, because that's what I do. The sad thing...or maybe good thing...is that for some reason I still believe He's there to hep me and that He will help me. But why won't He? I know God exists and He's real and He's Good. But why doesn't it feel that way? Why can't He ever just help me in a positive way? He can't even help me to get over this feeling!!
What the HECK is going ON?!?!?!
Don't bother posting comments, anyone. They'll probably just be negative, especially if you're who I think you are. So, thse who I am directing this paragraph (couple of sentences) to, STOP!!
And Aurielle and Alaina usually cause it the stupid bad moods. I hate feeling like this all the time; like EVERYTHING bugs me...everything's annoying; I always just want to PUNCH something!!!!!
I just can't STAND living with EITHER of them, Aurielle or Alaina! It's like they just TRY to ruin my life!! They hate me. And I know it too. Aurielle, quite frequently, tells me she hates me. I don't even know what to think anymore. She's been doing this for a long time now, and it's probably true. How can my own sister hate me? And then look at Alaina. She doesn't like me either. What do I think of it?
Then there's other stuff. Even God. It's like EVERY time I pray, something BAD happens to me! I ask Him for help, something bad happens. I just pray...to pray. Something bad happens. Or whatever. Should I keep praying? I know I will, because that's what I do. The sad thing...or maybe good thing...is that for some reason I still believe He's there to hep me and that He will help me. But why won't He? I know God exists and He's real and He's Good. But why doesn't it feel that way? Why can't He ever just help me in a positive way? He can't even help me to get over this feeling!!
What the HECK is going ON?!?!?!
Don't bother posting comments, anyone. They'll probably just be negative, especially if you're who I think you are. So, thse who I am directing this paragraph (couple of sentences) to, STOP!!