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well lets see here.. today sarted off good.. untill 3ed block.. my dad called and my cell vibrated and i went to press the end button so it wouldent vibrate again and my teacher took my fone.. and she gave me a red pass to the office.. so i went to the vice principal and told him n he called my dad and my dad came and got my phone.. but then my Math teacher emailed him bout some stupid shit and my dad said i mite not b able to go to orlando this weekend .. so i got really upset it was horrible.. then in chemestry this lady who is part of guidence naemd mrs. duke called me into her office and i just broke down i started crying and everything.. all this stress is getting to me.. and im so upset about it.. just everything.. school.. break ups.. friends.. being grounded.. making bad decisions.. everything.. its just really getting me down.. and im i guess not depressed but im never fully and compleatly happy.. ill laughh once in a while and pretend im happy but deep down im so upset and stressed... its like overwhelming.. i dotn know how to please anybody.. i cant make anyone happy.. and everything keeps changing.. i dont like change.. ive had enough of it in my life.. i want things to last forever (good things).. i dont know..
i miss newjersey alot.. i really do.. sometimes i wish it was summer again.. i kno i did some stupid shit that sumemr.. but when everyone was together like me josh ryan and colleen everything seemed perfect.. the way they made me feel.. the endless nights where i didnt have to go home and we were all together laughing and talking and deep convos with all 3 of them.. we were the best of friends.. i miss the fab four too.. Me neda eric and brenna.. i miss how we would drive around for endless nights and have no where to go.. i miss wild wood.. and going to the beach at 7 am.. and the nights were we through the best partys in the world... and ppl would b talking about them for days... i miss karin.. my twin.. my other half..how we were so alike.. and everyone knew we were best friends.. and they envyed how close we were.. i miss the wedding... and the club.. and sleep overs.. and everything... i miss mike perino.. n how he called me LONNY.. and made fun of me all the time.. i miss the basso twins.. and how i could run to lindsay and talk to her about anything... i miss how close i was with my cheerleading team.. and how we all had this sisterly bond.. i miss my doggie.. whos with my mom right now.. i miss how cute he is.. i miss josh most of all.. how we lived just around the block from eachother.. and how i would sleep at his house for lk a week at a time.. n never go home.. and i miss the nights we had.. and everything..
im happy to be back in florida .. dont get me wrong.. i love joanna.. with all my heart.. and my cousin! and im happy theres no more drama with the ppl from freshman yr.. im happy i became close to chels.. and sam.. and kelsey.. and everyone.. i love it.. but i do miss newjersey...
i dont know.. i hope this weekend works out.. i realyl do.. i need to get away.. just me and joanna.. and have fun.. and forget about guys.. and there bullshit.. and the drama.. and school.. and being grounded.. and everythinggggggg... i need to forget.. .. well.. thats enough bullshit for one day.. ill write later..
xo
1 good thing about today.. people told me next yr tehre gonna vote for me as "Most talkative" ahaha that made me happy!!!
i miss newjersey alot.. i really do.. sometimes i wish it was summer again.. i kno i did some stupid shit that sumemr.. but when everyone was together like me josh ryan and colleen everything seemed perfect.. the way they made me feel.. the endless nights where i didnt have to go home and we were all together laughing and talking and deep convos with all 3 of them.. we were the best of friends.. i miss the fab four too.. Me neda eric and brenna.. i miss how we would drive around for endless nights and have no where to go.. i miss wild wood.. and going to the beach at 7 am.. and the nights were we through the best partys in the world... and ppl would b talking about them for days... i miss karin.. my twin.. my other half..how we were so alike.. and everyone knew we were best friends.. and they envyed how close we were.. i miss the wedding... and the club.. and sleep overs.. and everything... i miss mike perino.. n how he called me LONNY.. and made fun of me all the time.. i miss the basso twins.. and how i could run to lindsay and talk to her about anything... i miss how close i was with my cheerleading team.. and how we all had this sisterly bond.. i miss my doggie.. whos with my mom right now.. i miss how cute he is.. i miss josh most of all.. how we lived just around the block from eachother.. and how i would sleep at his house for lk a week at a time.. n never go home.. and i miss the nights we had.. and everything..
im happy to be back in florida .. dont get me wrong.. i love joanna.. with all my heart.. and my cousin! and im happy theres no more drama with the ppl from freshman yr.. im happy i became close to chels.. and sam.. and kelsey.. and everyone.. i love it.. but i do miss newjersey...
i dont know.. i hope this weekend works out.. i realyl do.. i need to get away.. just me and joanna.. and have fun.. and forget about guys.. and there bullshit.. and the drama.. and school.. and being grounded.. and everythinggggggg... i need to forget.. .. well.. thats enough bullshit for one day.. ill write later..
xo
1 good thing about today.. people told me next yr tehre gonna vote for me as "Most talkative" ahaha that made me happy!!!