just a day just an ordinary day
Well.. last nite i had a real bad head ach i didnt think it was anything.. n i woke up this morning and my head was killing me..my dad says i have a signus infection.. i stayed home today.. i kno i shouldent of but my head is killing me.. im gonna study today.. i have too...
last nite i talked to joshh alot.. it was bad and good at the same time.. im so confussed.. i know its over..thres no doubt in my mind.. but sometimes.. i just dont know.. he said the LUST faded.. wtf is that suppose to mean.. i kno thats not good.. he WANTS to see others.. he says... i dont know how im supppose to take that.. as like he needs new "pussy" or he wants new love.. i dont know.. i mean if u really love someone ull wait forever for them right? he says where young.. i know where young.. but love dosnt care how old u r.. it just happens when it happens n u have to except that.. he wants to let go.. i try but deep down in my heart I DONT.. and i think thats whats stopping me from truley getting over him.. hmm.. i talked to colleen.. she helpd me through allotta things.. but at the same time it kinda sucks bc what she was saying was heart breaking.. for me and josh.. n her and ryan.. i remember ...................................... when everything was perfect.. when it was me and josh and ryan and colleen every damn night.. being together and just being the best of friends.. and being in love.. everynight we would be togheter.. and all night long it was perfect.. soo fun.. ryan and colleen are seriously amazing people.. i love ryan i really do.. he helps me alot too.. i miss him like crazy.. i really do.. and colleen.. god i cant explane how much i love i have for that girl.. i really cant.. she is fucken amazing.. she is perfect.. i love her so much.. if i was i guy id date her lol rite coll!!! hHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA lmao.. i love that girl with all of my heart..!!
well.. thats all for now.. im gonna go lay down n do hw n study.. ergh! xOx
last nite i talked to joshh alot.. it was bad and good at the same time.. im so confussed.. i know its over..thres no doubt in my mind.. but sometimes.. i just dont know.. he said the LUST faded.. wtf is that suppose to mean.. i kno thats not good.. he WANTS to see others.. he says... i dont know how im supppose to take that.. as like he needs new "pussy" or he wants new love.. i dont know.. i mean if u really love someone ull wait forever for them right? he says where young.. i know where young.. but love dosnt care how old u r.. it just happens when it happens n u have to except that.. he wants to let go.. i try but deep down in my heart I DONT.. and i think thats whats stopping me from truley getting over him.. hmm.. i talked to colleen.. she helpd me through allotta things.. but at the same time it kinda sucks bc what she was saying was heart breaking.. for me and josh.. n her and ryan.. i remember ...................................... when everything was perfect.. when it was me and josh and ryan and colleen every damn night.. being together and just being the best of friends.. and being in love.. everynight we would be togheter.. and all night long it was perfect.. soo fun.. ryan and colleen are seriously amazing people.. i love ryan i really do.. he helps me alot too.. i miss him like crazy.. i really do.. and colleen.. god i cant explane how much i love i have for that girl.. i really cant.. she is fucken amazing.. she is perfect.. i love her so much.. if i was i guy id date her lol rite coll!!! hHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA lmao.. i love that girl with all of my heart..!!
well.. thats all for now.. im gonna go lay down n do hw n study.. ergh! xOx