yea
well.. yeseterday was oka.. i stayed home.. i was maybe suppose to go to Manda Bries house to sleep over after she got off of work.. but i was on the fone with josh so i decided to stay home and talk to him all night ! :) we had a good conversation.. i havent talked to him on the fone like that in so long.. but i went to bed kinda early last nite and woke up at lk 830.. and called josh.. we kinda got into a fight bc i put on my journal something i shouldent have.. once again amanda finds a way to fuck up...
i feel so bad! about everything that ive done.. i try so hard to be perfect but i just cant be.. im always a reck.. i always fuck up.. and make people upset or mad at me.. i dont know why i do it.. i KNOW i dont do it intentionally.. i just dont think b4 i do it... if only he knew how much he means to me.. i think about the past and i wanna shoot my self in the head.. i fucked up so much in jersey.. in a way i wish i didnt move there.. but im kinda happy i did bc i met him .. i dont know.. im upset rite now..
xox
fuck up
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Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger
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Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
Kissed me unexpectedly
A moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
Took them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Don't think I'll write another letter
Watching there the pink sunset
Without thinking about you
I take a walk along the blue seaside
How will I sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes
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(Sparks)
did I drive you away?
I know what you'll say
you say oh, sing one you know
I promise you this
I'll always look out for you
yeah that's what I'll do
you say ah...
I say ah...
my heart is yours
it's you that I hold onto
yeah that's what I do
I know I was wrong
I won't let you down
oh, yeah I will, yeah I will, yes I will
I say ah...
I cry ah...
yeah I saw sparks
yeah I saw sparks
and I saw sparks
yeah I saw sparks
singing out
la la la la la la
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look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
oh wh at a thing to have done
and it was all yellow
your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so
I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow
and your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
for you I bleed myself dry
for you I bleed myself dry
it's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do
i feel so bad! about everything that ive done.. i try so hard to be perfect but i just cant be.. im always a reck.. i always fuck up.. and make people upset or mad at me.. i dont know why i do it.. i KNOW i dont do it intentionally.. i just dont think b4 i do it... if only he knew how much he means to me.. i think about the past and i wanna shoot my self in the head.. i fucked up so much in jersey.. in a way i wish i didnt move there.. but im kinda happy i did bc i met him .. i dont know.. im upset rite now..
xox
fuck up
-----------------------
Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger
----------------------
Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
Kissed me unexpectedly
A moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
Took them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Don't think I'll write another letter
Watching there the pink sunset
Without thinking about you
I take a walk along the blue seaside
How will I sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes
-------------------------------------
(Sparks)
did I drive you away?
I know what you'll say
you say oh, sing one you know
I promise you this
I'll always look out for you
yeah that's what I'll do
you say ah...
I say ah...
my heart is yours
it's you that I hold onto
yeah that's what I do
I know I was wrong
I won't let you down
oh, yeah I will, yeah I will, yes I will
I say ah...
I cry ah...
yeah I saw sparks
yeah I saw sparks
and I saw sparks
yeah I saw sparks
singing out
la la la la la la
-----------------
look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
oh wh at a thing to have done
and it was all yellow
your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so
I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow
and your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
for you I bleed myself dry
for you I bleed myself dry
it's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do