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from anxiously waiting to hang out with you friday after school, so waiting 8 long miserable months to see your beautiful face, kills me. i honestly couldn't tell you how i've survived these past couple months. it seems like the days go longer and just talking to you through text doesn't help anymore. i need to see your face. i need that comfort that i find so deeply in your hugs. i miss every part of you. miss waiting till the lunch bell would ring just so i could walk over to where you were so you could walk me to my fifth period class, cause spending those 5 minutes together made my day onehundred times better. miss begging you to see the natitivty set with me and you always shooting down my ideas. i miss the way you hugged me you, you know the sense of security that i felt with you arms around, it felt like home to me, like the perfect moment. everytime i think about the night that you pulled out of the drive, makes me sick to my stomache. i can still picture that day as it was yesterday, and still feel the aweful hurting pain that shoots in my stomache. i miss talking to you everyday, and you listening to me complain about everything. it seems like so much has changed over the year, that we arent the same people anymore. our relationship has changed, but my love for you, will never. you make me the happiestgirl in the world, and you have no clue.i pray to god that you love me like you say you do but who really knows. you're my everything that i need in life. my bestfriend, boyfriend, my world. i want to spend the everyday from now until i die with you. you mean too much to me. can't wait till i see your beautiful face this winter break. until then, my heart breaks. i miss you too much

ass long as i'm living papa, my baby you'lll be.
till the stars stop shinning. 12.16.07<3